Angry angry angry!

I can't shut my brain off. I've been really stressed about life and everything--especially with taxes coming up--and the semester started today. I have no money. I work a full work-week while still somehow sinking into debt. I want to go to graduate school to get a higher-paying job after this semester--but oh look! That's going to involve even more debt. I have a nightmarish credit score, seriously, the scores that you see on late-night cable ads for services to help your credit. I have really. bad. credit. I'm not afraid of hard work, but it feels like for every one step forward, I take two steps back. Now I'm just angry at the world. I feel like it's impossible to survive here. I want to run away, but there's nowhere to go. You need money to do anything or get anywhere.

I was already in a bad mood and feeling anxious, and stressed, and then I got online to find spiteful comments on another forum where I had previously reached out for help. Now I'm just done. I feel done with everything. I'm angry with people, I'm angry with life, I'm angry with just everything!!!

I'm not an angry person usually. I didn't know I could see this amount of red.

I thought maybe typing would help, it usually does, but tonight it doesn't seem to be.

I get these moments when I feel everything is falling apart, and get angry and frustrated. I usually feel better when I sleep and wake up the next morning. People could be mean when write the wrong thing, but helpful when they understand and listen. I've faced both types. I hope you feel better today.

I felt that way before I was finally able to financially leave my bad marriage. It scared me when I really did see that RED in one of my angry outbursts when I had enough of his crap. I had been financially trapped in the bad marriage so I can totally relate how financial issues & debt can trap you in places you don't want to be.

Wish I had a good solution but in reality we just have to work our way through it, make wise decisions not to get deeper in debt because no matter how good of a job it doesn't make up for the debt incurred. Finding a job with educational help might be a better thing to search for.

I ended up being able to sell my moms house after she died. That was my only way for escape & I feared when I went looking for a home far away that if I didn't get something I would end up stuck in the trap & all the money would be frittered away. He is still destroying my credit because my name is still on the loan on the house we owned together & divorce doesn't fix that problem.

I am so sorry you are going through this especially working so hard & seeing nothing for all that work. I understand the frustration & the ANGER