[NotDeadYet]

So I have been diagnosed with Sensory Processing Disorder and an Early Learning Disorder but that has been all I have been diagnosed with. But I have had other problems throughout childhood which had made me confused as to why I haven't been given more? I have always been noted as being emotionally unstable, they even wanted to put me on medication in elementary school due to me lack of being able to control my emotions. These problems got worse in middle school and still persist today. I have zero control over my emotions and can't regulate then properly. This has lead to extreme bullying throughout elementary and middle school. My mom even knows about these issues, but nothing was done to help me with them. Why didn't u get help sooner? Why did they have to make me wait this long and make it get this bad?

[passionfruit3]

How old are you now?i actually had this two when my birthday was only a few months away from turning 18 they finally had a residential place that looked actually rather nice i could live there and get treated but because of my birthday they would not accept me.now i look back how i could have made so much progress at the residential if i had got help sooner there is virtually no help for adults at least not here and yet no one bothered to do anything until after graduation when i aged out.i had problems as young as 15. And now i have the worst type of psych care available im thankful. For health care coverage though. My family was very secretive about my condition though that could have played a part.

[NotDeadYet]

Originally Posted by passionfruit3

How old are you now?i actually had this two when my birthday was only a few months away from turning 18 they finally had a residential place that looked actually rather nice i could live there and get treated but because of my birthday they would not accept me.now i look back how i could have made so much progress at the residential if i had got help sooner there is virtually no help for adults at least not here and yet no one bothered to do anything until after graduation when i aged out.i had problems as young as 15. And now i have the worst type of psych care available im thankful. For health care coverage though. My family was very secretive about my condition though that could have played a part.

I'm 18 right now :/ I also think that if I had gotten help sooner I would be doing so much better right now, and maybe I won't have a better control of myself then I do. Heck, I didn't even know about my actual diagnosed problems til last year.

[passionfruit3]

Your parents never told you or what? Its a lot harder as an adult not impossible but harder.i lost a lot of friends.and best friends now live far away.i couldn't manage college though i tried my disability has messed up a lot for me to unlike when i was in highschool.actually didnt have much of a highschool experience i was in and out homeschooled cause of my disability or taken to mental all the time amazing how i survived and got my diploma.i also had a lot of problems with control not at 18 but when my condition was really bad 15 through 17.id fight with my dad a lot hed physically restrain me and id throw bite and kick him whatever i could trigger i was paranoid cause my mom worked nights so i liked to check clocks he didnt.like me.doing that so wed fight.those were terrible times as a teen.i dont know whose to blame god me or them.i do hope you get better there are certain good programs out there that offer good programs for people 18 to 21 so id do my research.i just wish i didn't have crappy therapist who dont have much to.offer.me

[NotDeadYet]

Originally Posted by passionfruit3

Your parents never told you or what? Its a lot harder as an adult not impossible but harder.i lost a lot of friends.and best friends now live far away.i couldn't manage college though i tried my disability has messed up a lot for me to unlike when i was in highschool.actually didnt have much of a highschool experience i was in and out homeschooled cause of my disability or taken to mental all the time amazing how i survived and got my diploma.i also had a lot of problems with control not at 18 but when my condition was really bad 15 through 17.id fight with my dad a lot hed physically restrain me and id throw bite and kick him whatever i could trigger i was paranoid cause my mom worked nights so i liked to check clocks he didnt.like me.doing that so wed fight.those were terrible times as a teen.i dont know whose to blame god me or them.i do hope you get better there are certain good programs out there that offer good programs for people 18 to 21 so id do my research.i just wish i didn't have crappy therapist who dont have much to.offer.me

I was just never told, she finally did tell me about my sensory processing disorder and let me see my childhood files when I made an off-handed comment about the texture of eggs. I was the worst with my emotions in middle school, thankfully when me and my mom fought it was only yelling matches, I try not to interact with her much now.

[passionfruit3]

Was your relationship. With your mom always. Tense?i hope you two figure it out soon in life its short and anything. Can happen. You dont want to remember. Her on her death bed as. Regreting and feeling guilty.in middle. Schoofoit wasnt that bad but i could now think back and see something. Starting see i got diagnosed with sensory motor skill issues in 6th grade they put me in a dark room and made me do strange. Test then in middle school i became paranoid by my caseworker. I always thought she was going. To make me do strange.test.on me or carried needles in her drawer or say something. Mean to me or take me.somewere odd.i was super paranoid highschool was worse being homeschooled my older sister walked home from school well if she didnt. Come home on time that was an automatic meltdown.id cry my eyes out.it was.the same with my mom.i always thought theyd been raped or killed.i was an odd kid the type who if you didn't pick up id just keep calling.no matter how annoyed you were still that way to an extent not as bad.

[NotDeadYet]

Originally Posted by passionfruit3

Was your relationship. With your mom always. Tense?i hope you two figure it out soon in life its short and anything. Can happen. You dont want to remember. Her on her death bed as. Regreting and feeling guilty.in middle. Schoofoit wasnt that bad but i could now think back and see something. Starting see i got diagnosed with sensory motor skill issues in 6th grade they put me in a dark room and made me do strange. Test then in middle school i became paranoid by my caseworker. I always thought she was going. To make me do strange.test.on me or carried needles in her drawer or say something. Mean to me or take me.somewere odd.i was super paranoid highschool was worse being homeschooled my older sister walked home from school well if she didnt. Come home on time that was an automatic meltdown.id cry my eyes out.it was.the same with my mom.i always thought theyd been raped or killed.i was an odd kid the type who if you didn't pick up id just keep calling.no matter how annoyed you were still that way to an extent not as bad.

Bad thing about asking about my relationship with my mom is I only clearly remember middle school so I can only account for that, we did have a pretty tense relationship, I remember one time I told her I didn't know if I loved her or not and always threatened to run away. And any memories I do have on elementary aren't good ones. Right now all of my memories are a blur, even in middle school. I do have weird paranoia, but not about loved ones ending up dead, the first clear one I could remember is in highschool was a fear that someone was floating outside my window watching me while I slept.

I myself knew there was something different about me as young as 4yrs old. I was bullied mercilessly - and my mother knew it. Instead of finding me help she reinforced the bullying.

I was 48 before I finally was placed in therapy. Why the hell wasn't I exposed to this sooner? I resent this.