[Anonymous37919]

I'm so bored. I honestly don't have a social life whatsoever, and feel sluggish. Having anxiety sucks. I've not been able to get any decent support workers, as of yet anyway. They never act like they have any clue about anything.

I became interested in live streaming games, as the PS4 allows you to stream live and play games you may record. But getting people to subscribe is so tough. Since everybody does it, I guess others can do it better.

Otherwise, I'm just depressed. The heat in my family's house is so humid. I've never felt 100% great in years now. I'm also suffering from OCD, loneliness, and feel frustrated because social services are so bad now.

[sin333]

Hi im sin, I also suffer with depression, OCD, loneliness. I'm also suffering with the humid weather and as it's just beginning of summer I'm really struggling. I also suffer from SAD but mine is the opposite from most people, as I hate summer. Usually in summer I end up in hospital every year but I have broke this cycle and haven't been back in there since 2014.
The sluggish feeling is mostly depression but the heat makes it worse.
How old are you as you said social services so you must be only young.
If they aren't doing much for you can't you ask your GP to refer you to a therapist?

As it is with most people, you are very good at pointing out the things in life that aren't going well. That's the first step. The next step is to look at each issue in your life and try to come up with some strategies to change those issues.

I have seen your past posts about not being able to find a good support worker. Might I be bold and suggest that you try to do this without a support worker? You seem to be waiting for the perfect support worker to come into your life and that will make all the difference, but in the end it's still you that needs to make these changes, not the worker. They are there as a guide but you still have to do the work.

[Sunflower123]

One of the members in my household keeps the temperature high in the house so I carry a big (but still portable), strong fan around with me. It really helps. This could do wonders for you in addressing one of your problems. Best wishes.

[Anonymous37919]

Scared, there is definitely much truth in what you said. It's not good to rely on others for happiness, especially people like 'support workers' who are just doing a job. Many of them are as thick as wood, being honest. But there is good and bad people everywhere. I'm sure there are people in every profession out there (even ones where trust should be key) that are either openly nasty or not what you think after more delving into their background. And they say you have to be happy with yourself to make the rest fall into place. I've never been one for spouting philosophy, or is it common sense talk? It's one or the other, anyway.

My anxiety means I have little reassurance. Sometimes, I just want to get on with my day and be strong, but it's like the fear grips me. For a long time, I've never had much self-esteem, nor do I like being in crowded places or busy streets. I've been hurt too much and people have disappointed me. My ex for example was a very nasty and cruel person, who didn't offer up much joy. Being an extra in a film is hard as the days can be long.

In that case, one may ask why I think acting is for me. Maybe it is or it isn't, but I got some critical appraisal when I acted in a play once. This was when I was still attending college; I played Scarecrow, but it was such a long time ago. Then I had this awful panic attack in 2009. They are not pleasant at all. Since then, I've never had another full-blown anxiety attack, but I get "signs" that one could be brought on, and it happens in wide open areas.

My sister feels like this too. She said she gets vertigo-like symptoms. She thinks medication may be necessary to correct the chemical imbalance that causes the worrying. I'm sure OCD and panic disorders are linked. The same with PTSD and other mental illnesses. Either way, they need to invent a "miracle pill" or something, to end all this horrible stress.

[dermald]

When my son was little, he would often declare, "I'm bored." As he felt his boredom, I would feel the pressure of needing to entertain him, or to figure this out for him. The Codependent in me wanted to make everything as easy for him as possible.

Instead of doing that, I told him that saying he was "bored" was the wrong way to go about it, because it was a declaration that he was completely helpless when it came to something as basic as his own entertainment. It was also an expectation that he wanted someone else to do all of the heavy lifting for him, while he kicked back like a king to enjoy what the court jester had to offer.

So I told him to not say that anymore, and instead say something like, "Hmmm... what should I do next?" He started doing this. The end result was that he ended up figuring out what made him happy. He figured out what he truly wanted to do, instead of doing what I felt might be a good filler.

I challenged my son, and it worked, so now I give that challenge to you. Of course, you can take it or leave it. I'm just some guy on the internet.

You have one life. You get one shot. Wherever you are in life right now, you'll never be there again.

What would you like to do with it? What would you like to do for YOU?

[Anonymous37919]

I think when it comes to acting, you have to know the right people. These days a HD Tablet with a tripod can look like a pro camera. Of course, things are often a case of money and enthusiasm, or it is hopeless.