Afraid to seek hospitalization

I have had recent issues w/ SI and have been contemplating hospitalization. The problem is that in the past when I have been hospitalized my behaviors led me into sexual encounters while there. When my ptsd is in full effect my decision and clarity go out the door w/ my brain. I know I need help but am so afraid to tell my new T. I just have to admit myself and bite the bullet. So confused and hurting.

Do what is best for you and focus on yourself and your mental well-being. Sexual encounters should not be a part of your hospital plans, leave that off the table this time.

Where I live, they generally will not admit you just for self-injury unless it's very serious or you're suicidal and/or homicidal (with a plan and intending to carry it out). There are exceptions - my last hospitalization was for a med tweak and I wasn't even suicidal. Just giving you a heads up that if you can promise you'll stay safe at home, they likely won't admit you.

[QUOTE=scaredandconfused;5735103]Do what is best for you and focus on yourself and your mental well-being. Sexual encounters should not be a part of your hospital plans, leave that off the table this time.

i hear you, thanks. Just don't trust myself right now

We want you to be safe.. please, talk to your T if you feel the situation is bad.

You need to communicate this with your therapist and the mental healthcare team at the hospital.

I'm sorry you are having a tough time. Please share this information with your therapist and the hospital. It's important. I'm glad you recognize that you need help. I hope you start feeling better soon. Good luck and best wishes.