Why do I feel sadness when hearing certain "softer" music?

Firstly, I don't see your responses as arguing with me but simply just how you are thinking that may include some things you are not seeing through no fault of your own. I have had challenges myself and I don't always see everything "in the moment" if I experience a trigger. However, that is something that happens in human nature itself. For example, that other female student that made that comment to you reacted to your discomfort "her" way, with what she knew instead of considering that you get frustrated and negative and she could have responded to you in a much more positive and supportive way. That is something you need a lot of because your history that you have shared has been a lot of negative messages mostly from your mother directed at you.

How could you understand empathy when you never experienced it? How could you know how to help and empathize with others when you were never shown how to engage that way? It's no wonder you get uncomfortable with these kind of interactions, not your fault. You have one huge motivation of thinking that in order to gain love and respect you have to do something "big". However, that doesn't necessarily resolve the ongoing sensitivities within that inner fear and lack of trust that began when you were just a child. This is something that we are slowly learning to recognize by our continuing study of human nature and the human mind and how we are designed to thrive in spite of and how emotions play a role in that too.

When we are young we tend to react from our amygdala. In fact for many years as we develop the average human being tends to be narcissistic where the world revolves around them. We have learned that the brain doesn't mature until around age 25 where an individual can slowly begin more reasoning rather than mostly functioning off of the amygdala as well as one's evolving hormones preparing for reproduction which is "nature" designed to procreate for the species.

This desire to "do something big" has always been very recruit-able. It's very evident in our human history in the pyramids, the early ships, and amazing stone structures still standing where we just marvel at how these things were accomplished with so little technology compared to what we have now. It's remarkable in that the overall survival rate/life span was no where near what it is today.

You have been encouraged to believe you can't strive, that was due to your mother's lack of knowledge as well as an overall lack that even though we have been gaining on our understanding, we still lack and can fall into the trap of not recognizing potential that just doesn't respond to the ideal of performance when it comes to educational expectations.

You need time to realize what you can accomplish and the only way that happens is embracing the yet that I have talked about and for example, learning that you can learn to drive a car, get a license and find your way towards buying a car you can afford where you can slowly get more mobile. You also need to slowly realize that you have a lot of things you "want" and that in order to reach these goals you have to take steps and to actually experience success in these steps. And learn to enjoy the process itself as well. That is what I worked on with each student I taught and how I worked on observing each student and how they learned best.

What concerns me about you is the way you were encouraged to think you would not be able to make it on your own. This is what makes you angry, yet, you also turn that anger inward which is what you did when you were triggered in that class, triggered again by what that other female student uttered and your desire was to walk away from that class. That is functioning off the amygdala, and I know how that is because I have my own sensitive areas where I can struggle that way myself. What you need to experience is how someone else can react in an unsupportive way like that which is due to their own lack and not so much yours. It's typical of this age group too and that is bound to trigger you in how your mother responded due to her lack of understanding how to be a more nurturing presence for you instead of reacting to your needs as if they were an unreasonable bother.

It's important to give "self" a chance to gain "gradually". Adrenaline does provide energy, but it's important to recognize when it's not helpful too. I know that can be a challenge.

Soft female voices represent peace, harmony and softness.
Just my thought - you may have deep feelings to it because it's contradicting to your current rough situation, yet deeply wanted deep within you.