[The Madcap]

Hey guys, so i have a pretty ridiculous post, but I was listening to Nirvana the other night, and I almost was brought to tears. I felt like I was apart of Kurt Cobain. It’s a weird powerful feeling. I was listening to the song dumb, and when he repeats the words “I think I’m dumb” it is just so powerful and I just feel everything. I know the song isn’t about literally feeling dumb, but still, growing up I always thought I was dumb because I had (still have) a learning disorder, and hearing the person you look up to singing that, thinking he is dumb, really I don’t know..it really is a hard feeling to explain. Just a really powerful feelings. I don’t know, almost a depressing euphoria, because I feel depressed but I feel uplifted but down. I don’t know if this has to do with my mood swings and the fact that I have ADHD and High functioning autism. I had a pretty similar childhood and my teenage years were pretty much like Kurt’s so maybe that’s why. Also I love writing songs, drawing, writing poems and playing guitar like he did. But I just feel such a personal connection despite the fact that I didn’t even know him. I don’t want to be one of THOSE angstie Millennials, but it’s just weird that the song “dumb” would bring me to tears. Like it was uncontrollable tears. I was shaking and everything.

[winter loneliness]

I loved him.He inspires me on many levels. And I am his age, had he lived.

[childofchaos831]

Kurt Cobain, Chester Bennington, Amy Winehouse, Robin Williams...

I absolutely get what you are saying... it's weird feeling connected to someone you've never met but it's like I know what they were going thru and I wish I could just sit with them and talk or even just give them a hug sometimes... I feel like it would help me even more than I can even imagine...

[Sunflower123]

Kurt Cobain’s passing still bothers me all these years later. I do wish someone had been there to sit and talk with him. I can understand you feeling connected to him. I get that.

[Turtle_Rider]

I understand. Mine is not Kurt, but Chester. I'm still bothered with his death.

[Teddy Bear]

Music touches us and people feel connected to the musician

[winter loneliness]

Amy winehouse really bothered me. Such a big talent and those around her couldn't help her alcohol and drug addiction.

Same with a lot of celebrities. Those surrounding them often just see them as "stars" and treat them as such. A lot of times ,no one can help them deal with the pressure and stress. Add mental illness and addiction into the mix and suicide or OD is the outcome.