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I just feel like I'm a bit off- especially lately.
I'm sleeping well, not taking any medications. But it kinda feels like I'm "losing it". And it's beginning to interrupt my daily life. Some examples:

1. When doing tasks like laundry, cleaning, etc., I'm aware that I'm doing those tasks, but it feels like I'm there and not there at the same time. It makes me often forget everything that's happened. I look back, something is gone, and appears somewhere else. (I'm sure there's a better way to explain). This has been happening way too often (more than once daily).. where I do things with little recollection, then forget details. I'm only 17 and it shouldn't be happening this early..

2. I'm beginning to struggle socially. I keep my head down, my voice is inappropriately loud sometimes, and I laugh or do things at inappropriate times. Such as mumbling or talking to myself, doing weird actions, etc.

3. I feel numb to everything. I can't feel emotions a lot of times. I've lost interest in many things. I do present emotions, but it feels almost like an automatic reaction, as I don't feel feelings behind it. And if they are there, they're only there for a second, then goes away.

4. I'm beginning to struggle with school, comprehending questions, skipping classes, focusing.

5. I feel unsympathetic. I went off to college, and ignore my parents calls, and never think about them at all. It feels as though I don't care at all about them for some reason. Not even my "friends", who I have stopped talking to lately as well, just to test how I feel. Nothing.

What's your opinion? Yes, I know I should've gone to a therapist by now. But if I go and my insurance doesn't cover it, my family will know, and I don't care much for talking to them.

I relate to almost everything you said. We can't diagnose anyone here, but I do recommend seeing a therapist if you can.

With that being said, it sounds like you could be experiencing some dissociation. Which is something I experience a lot. The emotional numbness and feeling robotic for instance.

Just my 2¢. Definitely see a therapist if you can.

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Thank you, I plan to do so in January, after christmas break.

[Besibeau]

I would agree that you did describe some dissociative symptoms but it can also be depressive in nature particularly with the poor concentration and social withdrawal. Still, you will need someone to see you and clarify your symptoms so that you can be supported further. Hope it helps.

[eskielover]

After a trauma I went through I experienced similar. It was scary because someone woukd ask me a question, I answeted but had no idea how I knew how to answer because it was like I was watchong myself in a movie & the person was asking the question in the movie, not to me. My pdoc explained that what I was experiencing was depersonalization.

10 years + after the trauma I am much better. Now I just get a spacy feeling when I get stressed.

My current psychologist said those experiences are our coping mechamisms to deal with stress. They only are considered a real problem if they cause us problems functioning on a daily basis.

It is a scary feeling when it first hits & we dont know what in the world is happening

[SheilaKathy]

You might want to see a psychiatrist too.

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Thank you guys! I hope I'm not over thinking it.

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Thank you guys! I hope I'm not over thinking it.

Nope! You're right to question these feelings and thoughts. That's part of how we find out what's going on with us. And do see a therapist for this. Good luck to you.