I feel far worse and may need to leave PC

As an update: I no longer feel this way and realize what I need to do. I need to be aware of my triggers, try to step away when I do feel triggered, or take breaks and also maybe post less.

Thank you so much to everyone who has provided support...

Oh, and I am not saying this to shut down any further comments, only just as an update.

fwiw i've found this thread helpful on the whole. lot's of good insights. i don't have anyone in real life who really understands or who I'd want to burden so having online people who want to discuss the same subject really helps.

That's very commendable and I am so proud of you! I think the problem is it can be REALLY hard things we don't want to hear, even if they may be good for us. Triggers are definitely important too, and I am so glad you have gained the self-awareness that you have to walk away when necessary.

Most don't have that kind of clarity. So be proud!

I'm so glad it's been helpful to you! To me as well.

TY!

I am contemplating leaving myself because of how much I've been targeted lately by trolls. I just don't want to be somewhere if I'm not wanted. And it's getting hard to brush off all these attacks. It's hard because I don't want to leave, I love it here, but I'm really tired of these attacks. And I'm not talking about interpersonal differences or confrontation. I mean outright assassinations on my character. I feel like I'm being chased away from a place i really love and am grateful for.

Seesaw

(((((Seesaw)))))

Can you report them?



I understand feeling triggered and also loving this place.

I can and do report. But they keep coming back using a different IP address. Admin is awesome in dealing with it, but it has to happen again and again, they can't prevent it, only deal with it after it happens. So I have to deal with these attacks again and again. And it's making me feel like a ****** person, which I know isn't true.

Breaks from PC are seriously the best. I take breaks from here. Also there is an App called "Freedom" that I use to block websites sometimes (including PC) when I want to get stuff done. I'm sure there's other apps too, but thats the one I use. Stepping away = best thing ever.

I think also, its important to be able to talk to a mod or admin if they are open to it sometimes. I have done that in the past.

This can be "just an online forum," but really lately, its been much more than that to me. At the same time, I find it helpful to remember that online is not a substitute for real life. At least, not for me. Just wanted to express what helps me.

ps: I am glad this thread is here.

we wait your return soon enough

Is this supposed to be a dig at me? "soon enough"

IMO, this is not a dig. As I see it & have had exchanges with Bunny, it’s obvious to me, that English is not her first language. So there’s a sentence construction issue, that’s all.

Thanks. Very paranoid right now because of the trolling attacks.

((((((((((Seesaw))))))))) I am so sorry you are getting attacked. You don't deserve character assassination... I do hope you stay but I understand your sentiments. Attacks wear on a person.

(((((((Starry)))))))) nice to see you posting here.

Hugs. I have to say that I find this thread triggering because it makes me think members will feel they have done something to make others feel that they need to leave. Saying that you were thinking about leaving puts guilt on others whether you meant it to do that or not. Members make friends here, real friendships. When a post like this is made it makes your friends and other members feel bad.

I'll give you some history behind this... many yrs ago we had members posting that they were leaving. They got huge support asking them to stay. You could say that was manipulation or a heartfelt plea. That member would then leave and then immediately come back as a new member and do the same thing all over again. That member needed help and support for their issue but in the meantime it upset the community greatly. That's why 'I'm leaving posts' were banned.

I don't know you eve that well, but I can see you are a well loved member here and you help a lot if people with your posts. Saying you were thinking about leaving, to me is the same as saying you are leaving as it invokes the same feelings in me. Guilt and pain that you want to leave. I realise that this is a TRIGGER for Me! My issue from my childhood. This realisation of my triggers helps me to grow and helps me with my own mental health issues. Recognise your triggers and deal with it...

Use Psych Central as a self help tool when you need. We all have issues. Hugs and I hope you stay.

I don't know if you've read the whole thread, you'd see it's more about dealing with our triggers than leaving.

Hi Pegasus, I am very sorry that this thread triggered you or invoked any amount of guilt or pain. That was not my intention at all.... I more so needed to vent about feeling triggered. As Seesaw has pointed out, this thread has been more about dealing with being triggered on here than about leaving. It has been helpful to some members, which I am very happy about. People seemed to have needed an outlet to talk about this issue. Through this thread, I also have realized that I need to take ownership when I feel triggered, similar to you owning the fact that you feel triggered yourself by the thread.

And thank you for your kind, sweet words. As mentioned above, I don't feel the same way as I did when I first posted the thread. I am dealing with my triggers as they arise and will take breaks as needed.

BIG HUGS to you!

I too felt the same way sort of that pegasus was....

your title is like notifying members that you may be leaving (leaving threads are not allowed so I did the reporting thing and then just read the thread not participated in it)

then I noticed posts where it was like accusing members of posting wrong to each other (again another thing that usually is not allowed so again I did the reporting thing and continued to just read this thread)

then I noticed members telling you not to go, why they wanted you to stay most times this does not bother me but in the past when this has happened those threads were removed because in the past many people have posted goodbye threads just to see how many would beg them to stay. then over time of the thread say ok not leaving. and then later doing it all over again.

so I went back and reread the thread and noticed that even though you have notified everyone with this thread titled you may be leaving psych central because of other members here, you did not take a break or leave the site despite its been 3 -4 weeks since you posted you may be leaving because of other members here and you continued to post in many forums here on psych central for those 3-4 weeks despite saying you were thinking of leaving.

that led me to think maybe this was all for attention and that maybe you had no intention of taking a break or leaving just wanted to see how many would respond to you blaming other members for your possible decision of .....maybe...... leaving, so I again did the reporting the thread deal and did not participate in the thread....

and now weeks later after telling everyone you are thinking of leaving because of other members here, you are now saying you are not leaving, that you do not feel the same way as you did when you started this thread...

my point I dont know what to think here....was this all a game an attention getter, was all this for real... there are rules/ guidelines here for a reason right ....

my suggestion since you no longer feeling like you want to leave the site why continue with this thread titled you are thinking of leaving....

maybe start a new thread without the intention of leaving stuff.

Im also with pegasus on how does this make others feel when people are posting about other members here. this is a mental health website. part of many mental disorders is symptoms like paranoia/ thinking others are out to get each other or attacking each other and now here is a thread doing just that calling out other members wrongdoings in posting without placing names to who is doing what....

I also agree with another persons post (at the moment cant go back in the thread to see who said it) but they mentioned someone has a language problem so their posts sometimes do not come out right...I many times have been on that receiving end where people have misunderstood my posts and have .......assumed ..... i was acting and doing things that I wasnt due to the fact that english is not my native language and I use translators.....I or anyone else here with language/ speech/ learning disorders that may affect how and what we post could feel attacked with many of these posts in this thread.

my point again this thread is very misleading (saying you are leaving then never leave or take a break) and could cause other members unintentional harm. and my ........opinion........ is why there are rules/ guidelines of not posting leaving/ goodbye threads.

maybe its time to let this thread RIP in cyberland and start a new thread that better fits you needing support without the Im thinking of leaving and its because of other members here kind of stuff.

edit...
in some of the posts as pointed out its about how to handle triggers suggestion how about a thread about how to handle triggers but without making it seem like others here are to blame for the triggers. no one can possibly know thousands of members triggers so of course some posts are going to trigger. but there is no need to place blame on posters for those triggers is my point on this issue.

Was a whole post lecturing really necessary? I feel defensive of the OP, so I'll hold myself back. I just want her to know she has support after she sees your post.

The irony. I am talking about being triggered, and you have no idea how triggering this post is! It is extremely negative and accusatory, full of false assumptions and conclusions about my intentions and actions.

I did not post this to get attention. I posted because I was upset. I am not going to defend myself or explain myself.

Sorry you are so offended by this thread. It was not my intention!

It was determined that this thread was not against any rules. If someone feels triggered by the title, they can use self-care by not clicking on the thread and not reading it. It's quite simple, really! Sorry to see that you are getting backlash on this, golden_eve.

TY, and agreed! Why read the thread if it's triggering?

First and foremost, we all need to be sincere with ourselves, 100 percent honesty. With that being said, here are my two cents:
1) we all need attention and we all want attention. lets not point fingers to one another or criticize others for wanting attention or deny that we want attention. Everyone on this site, at some point or another, posted something because she/he needs attention and there is nothing wrong with it. Mental health patients need attention (most of the time) and this is not something to be ashamed of or to be criticized. In fact, we need to be helpful to someone who wants attention.
2) We all get triggered. Being triggered is a result of most mental health conditions and it is not fair to point fingers at other members for triggering us (unless they are intentionally bullying us, which is a horse of a different color and I am not discussing it in here). I have been triggered many times on this site and at the end of the day, I know that the members did not mean to trigger me and I have to take responsibility for my emotions. Most members do not mean to trigger me. And, if I cannot handle someone's approach, I can always add them to the ignore list.

I am closing this thread while the team discusses it.