[lost_lonely]

I woke up this morning praying that things would start to get better today. I had a job interview, at a place I'd been to before, but didn't get the job because I couldn't work weekends. Saturday has opened up for me, so when I saw the same place advertising in the local paper again, I called them back and let them know I was available on weekends. They asked me to come in today, so I did and the manager said she'd look over my resume and get back to me. Don't know if I'll get it or not, but I thought I'd try again anyway. For me, "I'll get back to you," usually means it's a no go. But who knows, maybe I'll be lucky this time? My last job told me that after the interview, and low and behold they DID call and offered me the job, if only I hadn't screwed up and got myself fired from a job that I REALLY enjoyed and looked forward to everyday.
I also filled out two other applications while I was in the city, in case the other one doesn't work out. I figure somethings GOT to break if I keep filling out apps. and "hitting the pavement."
And I almost didn't make it there this morning. I opened my eyes and just lay there, thinking to myself how I would just forget about it and stay under my covers all day. But I got up. I got out of bed, got dressed, hopped on the bus and forced myself to go.
I felt a little better afterwards. I made myself take a different route through downtown to aviod walking past my old job, but I still did it. And even if something doesn't happen with any of these jobs today, at least I dragged myself out of bed and tried to put my best foot forward regardless of how I felt. Tomorrow I'll go for my driving test again, and I hope I make it through without screwing up, my specialty.
Through all of this, I'm still searching for that something to hold onto. It's 3:30 in the afternoon, and I can feel myself slipping again as day is quickly becoming night. I'm going to keep reminding myself of today, how I managed to get up and do what I had to do. It's not much, but maybe if will help comfort me later on tonight.

(((((LOST_LONELY)))))
You just keep your chin up; things will get better, just don't give up. Good luck on the job.
Love,
Jon

[SunshineGold03]

[SeptemberMorn]

WOW! What an accomplishment! You should give yourself a good pat on the back and a great big "Attagirl!!" It's so stinkin' hard to get up out of bed and face a day like you faced today. It took great strength and courage! You're an inspiration to those of us that just pull the blankets over our head and hide. Believe me, we feel a whole lot worse about ourselves than you do right about now!






<font color=blue>"Our doubts are traitors and make us lose the good we oft might win by fearing to attempt" --Shakespeare</font color=blue>

[Peanut61]

Good for you, ((((((((((((Not Lost))))))))))))))) = Well done! It takes a lot when depressed to go for a job interview - Right On!!

Fondly, Peanut

<font color=blue>HI FROM PEANUT</font color=blue>

[lost_lonely]

Thank you, everyone

[shakes]

Lost Lonely,
Congratulations!!!!!!! I know how big of a pain in the rear it is to get out there and find work. I have been going through it for two months and for awhile it was making me fall apart. I am so glad that you found the strength to do it.



Jessica

<font color=blue> You are in this snowglobe. It is encovered in glass and secure. But one day someone comes and shakes the globe and the pieces go flying everywhere. Now they will eventually settle but they won't be the way they were before and they can never be that way again. </font color=blue>