[Grims]

I somehow want to please everyone so much that I lie cause I want to upset them or make them feel bad about my screw ups. So I tell them something which isn't true in order to keep them happy and glad and try to fix the problems behind the curtain.

But since the problems are already fixed from other people's angle I'm kinda lazy on doing those problems. And I just want to be open about them, but I've gotten so accustomed to lying about it. I think it's cus I was very fragile as a child so whenever someone yelled at me or was disappointing it really hurt me bad.

Also at times I tell complete fairy stories about stuff which isn't real. I don't even know why do I do that. It's insane. The things might be really grandiose or really bragging how I'm doing good or from a rich background tho I'm really not that or not sure. Well at least not anymore. I always over-exaggerate things accidentally and then go like why did I say that thing? After it. Why do I keep doing this thing? I think it's cause I get a good feel from the thought and it kinda escalates out of control as a thought and I'm just reading it out loud and when it escalates out of control so easily I speak it out loud and in away it looks like a lie, but I didn't meant to lie or over exaggerate. And I get so lost in the thought I'm reading out loud that it takes me a few minutes to come down from it and when I do it's just far too embarrassing to come out of it that it wasn't exactly true.

Also at times it just hurts so bad to tell the truth on things that I just rather lie, but that doesn't work at all either cause it just makes things worse cause it doesn't change the reality. It just causes it to remain the same expect I lied. In away again I don't do that cause I wanted to lie. But I want things to be good and fine so bad that I in away imagine that they were good and read out my thoughts again how I was wish it was again cause I'm just so fragile that I fall apart if I disappoint people so I rather imagine them the way they should be and try to fix them behind the scenes.

I just wish I could stop with the lying, I really don't enjoy it at all.

I exaggerate, tweek, and enhance 'stories'. I start from a basis of the truth and the facts but I admit to embellishing the degree to which the story has importance. Is it attention seeking? I dunno. Is it wanting to be entertaining? Perhaps. Is it fibbing? To an extent but the 'meat and potatoes' of what i am relating remains the same. Is it a case of trying to emphasise the message? Maybe.

[mote.of.soul]

Good on you for being honest about it. It's obviously a positive step in the right direction. Yes, I understand where you're coming from, especially when the truth about something is uncomfortable or far from the societal norm or makes oneself look bad etc., then there arises a tendency to want to gloss things over or, yes, 'bend the truth' a little bit - lie. Whatever the case, I think if you continue to hold yourself to the principle of honesty and self honesty as best you can, then over time the lying should phase out - to be replaced by the truth - which has the power to set you free, apparently. Anyway, all the best.

[Dog on a Tree]

Tell the truth. I once told lies about myself because some where in the back of my mind i thought i was just plain average and nothing special about my life.
But then one day i realized i had been lying all this time and i had done a horrible thing and not said about it/lied about it.
Always say the truth because it builds trust and you face reality which in turn will make you a better person.

[Fuzzybear]

I once told a lie about my age (maybe twice ) Now I absolutely refuse to answer if someone attempts to pressure me to reveal my age. It really isn’t any of their business.. This is a good thread, interesting posts.

[ReptileInYourHead]

Grims, I can absolutely relate, though I was never as open and aware about it as you are.
I remember, when I was in grade 9, I made a friend who was into hockey, I lied and said I used to play in a league.
Well, he took me to one of his practices and told his coach that he should try me out for the team, right there and then.
They found me some equipment and put me on the ice, I was so terrified that not only my lies would be revealed, that I would make a complete fool out of myself but also that I would lose a friend.
Naturally, I sucked, failed horribly. I could have told the truth at any point and saved myself some embarrassment, but I didn’t. I rode the lie out to the very end.
I still made the team somehow and after a rocky season finished strong. But for whatever reason I didn’t play the next year, even though I wanted to. I was just too anxious of a kid.
That’s just one embarrassing story involving lies out of many, and I suffer for those lies to this day. The shame about that behaviour sticks to my spirit like sap.