Is this normal stupid things kids do tw

Thanks guys. The problem is, is that i was a willing partcipant to all of the things I experienced. So they really shouldnt have made me abuse other kids and animals. I just want to know so bad why I turned out the way I am and i cant know. My therapist says if I dont know she cant know.

But someone introduced it to you. That makes it different. If they had not exposed you to it then the odds are great that as a child you would not have participated. To me, that puts the "willing participant" part in question.

Yes, this kind of stuff self perpetuates, that doesn't excuse you but at least should give you a starting place to find forgiveness for your young self. There are extenuating circumstances that have to be viewed and explored. Start at the beginning, not the middle, not the end. Start where it started with you.

if i might just make two points perfectly clear:



often there are families or sub-cultures of sexual abuse. witnessing it, or coming into contact with some other child who has either witnessed it or had it done to them, can be like contamination of ideology and behavior.

the appropriate response in an adult who has recovered or finally faced memories of sexually maladaptive (wrong) behavior is 1) Horror, or 2) Anger, or 3) Grief.
guilt is not an appropriate response.

i do believe this is an empowering and healing perspective on this issue.

may you have healing, and the causes of healing~!

Couldnt it just of been that we said I wonder what it would be like to have oral sex. Nothing deeper. If so the fact I later acted on these things makes no sense.

My mom gave me some interesting information. Shortly after my child expermination in Daycare I became very anxious. I started flicking my parents off cussing etc. My mom told me that I told my dad I wanted to s*ck his d**k. I just dont know what to make of all this.