[rise13eyond]

OK to begin with I went from being just over 90 lbs to 185 lbs very fast. To be fair when I was at my lowest I wasn't eating enough.
And the biggest reason for my weight gain was psychiatric medications. 2 different ones but I can't remember the names on the labels.
Yeah that caused a problem with body image for me. I have a love hate relationship with food. I absolutely love to eat. I mean I love to bake so...But I also hate it. I hate that I eat and that my weight stays what is technically obese. I mean I have gone down to about 175.
I tried a sort of diets. I kept record of what I ate and only ate foods with sugar and fats on specific days (I called them my treat days). It did absolutely nothing. So I gave up on it.
I mean I did manage to somehow lose about 10 lbs but it wasn't til after I quite that diet.
Yet I still feel like I look like a whale. Like I eat too much. I avoid looking at myself in the mirror as much as possible, I wear ill fitting clothes so my curves aren't obvious.
My eating habits are....a bit all over the place. There have been days where I am constantly eating something, days that I eat very little, days that I just eat way too much all at once. Feeling horrible over your body isn't quite enough to get yourself to eat properly. Sometimes I'm an emotional eater, so many times when I was looking at myself thinking I weighed too much and needed to stop I just ate more because I didn't know what to do with myself.
No one else had caught onto my eating habits so I guess it isnt' bad enough to be called an eating disorder. Yet here I am hating my weight, my body, and feeling like there isn't anything I can do about it.

[MickeyCheeky]

Do you think your meds may be influencing your eating habits?

[splitimage]

I would highly recommend seeing a registered dietician and discussing your weight and eating issues with them. They can help you work out a balanced eating plan that can help you lose weight and be healthy. I'm on a ton of meds all of which have weight gain as a side effect, so I figured it would be impossible to lose weight, but by following the food plan the dietician and I put together, I've lost 30 lbs.

splitimage

[mote.of.soul]

Yes, I've been through the whole weight gain due to meds, as well. A lot of meds increase the appetite which is difficult to handle. But in the end, for me, it came down to dieting and a good amount of exercise, which I'm okay with. I had to find my own balance in those areas.

[amicus_curiae]

I’m just now suffering from a tremendous weight loss despite the weight gain promised by my mental meds. I’m the original 98lb. weakling.

I have no appetite, food makes me nauseous. I can drink medically prescribed protein shakes and manage one small solid food a day but... not much else. I don’t have an eating disorder, just a medical symptom.

I recommend the dietitian route suggested by splitimage. I’d give anything to desire food once again; my next diet will be through my veins. Can’t imagine that will be too tasty.

[rise13eyond]

I was actually seeing a dietitian when I was on that diet. So while I know the advice of see a dietitian is well meant and probably helpful to some people, it's not so much for me.