What is this

So ever since I was little I did this and I still do. I have dialogues in my head of things I would say and things someone I am attached to would say (mother figure types: teachers, counselors etc) Its like I am in my own little pretend world with them. Sometimes when I talk to real people I will talk as if this person I am talking to is listening too. So I may say things I would want them to hear to like my personality. What is this? Also I would like to know what this other thing I may be experiencing is as well. We would all agree I think that we as a society like horrible stuff: horror films, rubbing necking at the scende of s horrible car accident etc. I have a whole other side of me when it comes to that though. I am interested by some very horrible things. Get a sense of enjoyment. Its like Dr. Jekyl and Mr. Hyde.

Don’t know what it is. You deserve a proper diagnoses from a professional to get the right treatment. Hearing any kind of voices can be placed under differing disorders. I hope you can see a competent doctor for help.
You couldn’t pay me to watch a horror film.

I dont hear voices. Its an imaginary dialogue in my head. Its me thinking.

((((Dnester)))) The only way to know for sure what's going on is to ask a doctor... I'm sorry you're struggling.

Everyone has the voice in the back of there head. Nothing wrong with it

And it is very common that people are interested in horrible things, why do people tune into news? There's loads of disgusting things that are covered on there but you see people very interested in it when it comes up on TV.

You might find reading about Avoidant Personality Disorder interesting. In my opinion, people who are interested in "horrible things" sometimes are attempting to sort out their feelings with regard to experiencing pain--psychic pain or physical pain. You might find it helpful to ask a counselor or therapist about this.

I will give an example when I was little I would pretend I was talking to my teacher in my head. Like what I would say something and she would respond like a little dialogue between us in my head. I would even do things like she was watching. Things she would approve of. I wanted her to be my mom. Now I want my therapist to be that so I sometimes have those same type dialogues in my head with her. Its pretend, i am not hearing voices but I am an adult know and dont know why I still do it. I dont want to tell my T because she will be like alrighty then. I was emotionally abused growing up and just wanted a decent mother. Maybe its the only way I knew how to have one and since I still want that maybe its comforting to continue.

I do this all the time. I create dialogues in my head but mostly not good and nice dialogues. Sometimes, I get very angry in these dialogues, like really angry to the point I start talking loudly to myself. I think these come from some suppressed feelings in my case, because I cannot speak what I feel to the people I want for them to know how I feel in the real life.