[ProactivX]

Hello everybody.

I have been taking medication for my schizoid-paranoid symptoms for about two years till now .

But now it seems like some psychological issue is surfacing .

This is the three main things i am experiencing with respect to my own observations .

1) feeling the sting of a bad memory_ (this one occured when my psychosis started to developp)_ and worrying about not forgeting about it , and also worriying about the fact that it can add up to something else like my psychosis which will make the situation worse sooner or later .

2) intrusive toughts in the form of false memories which are uncontrollable and i end up going in believing them much more further by entering in a longue inner dialogue.

3) the fear of being stuck in a vicious cycle and not being able to break it or get loose from it.

[amandalouise]

Originally Posted by ProactivX

Hello everybody.

I have been taking medication for my schizoid-paranoid symptoms for about two years till now .

But now it seems like some psychological issue is surfacing .

This is the three main things i am experiencing with respect to my own observations .

1) feeling the sting of a bad memory_ (this one occured when my psychosis started to developp)_ and worrying about not forgeting about it , and also worriying about the fact that it can add up to something else like my psychosis which will make the situation worse sooner or later .

2) intrusive toughts in the form of false memories which are uncontrollable and i end up going in believing them much more further by entering in a longue inner dialogue.

3) the fear of being stuck in a vicious cycle and not being able to break it or get loose from it.

Im sorry but we can not tell you what your situation is. only your doctors can do that. besides they are going to want to know what and how things are with you without someone else telling you. for example your doctors are not going to want you to word things the way people online tell you, they will know whether you have been "coaches" for what your situation is. iits best that you just schedule your appointment with your doctors and then tell them in your own words how things are for you... a suggestion print off your post and let them see what you wrote as being your situation / problems

[avlady]

I struggle with all three things you mentioned. I am schitzo-affective and schitzophrenic too. I was having psychosis a few years ago ended up on psych ward and put on clozapine which helped greatly!! I am not usually one to suggest pills but they really helped. I am having problems still with false memories but can tell they are false and not true, meaning I can see the difference when the bad thoughts come along. Good luck!!

[ProactivX]

Originally Posted by avlady

I am having problems still with false memories but can tell they are false and not true, meaning I can see the difference when the bad thoughts come along. Good luck!!

Thanks am on amisulpride solian .

So when you can see the difference between false and true things does it mean you are mentally stable ?

but why these toughts keep comeing then ? i just want to know your own experience .

[MickeyCheeky]

Yes, I must agree with the wise, wonderful amandalouise, @ProactivX. Please definitely schedule an appointment with a good doctor or psychiatrist. They'll be able to help, certainly better than we can do here. Please be kind to yourself. Remember that it's for your own good. I am DEEPLY SORRY that you're struggling SO MUCH! Feel free to PM me anytime. I can't diagnose you but I can listen. I'm sure plenty of others will listen as well. KEEP FIGHTING, MY AWESOME, DEAR, KIND AND SWEET FRIEND! Sending many safe, warm hugs to you and your family, ProactivX!

[ProactivX]

Originally Posted by MickeyCheeky

Yes, I must agree with the wise, wonderful amandalouise, @ProactivX. Please definitely schedule an appointment with a good doctor or psychiatrist. They'll be able to help, certainly better than we can do here. Please be kind to yourself. Remember that it's for your own good. I am DEEPLY SORRY that you're struggling SO MUCH! Feel free to PM me anytime. I can't diagnose you but I can listen. I'm sure plenty of others will listen as well. KEEP FIGHTING, MY AWESOME, DEAR, KIND AND SWEET FRIEND! Sending many safe, warm hugs to you and your family, ProactivX!

Will do definitly .