[welovesolitude]

i have feeling something is wrong with me, but i don’t know what. so far my experiences have led me to think i have
anxiety
depression
cyclothymic disorder
maladaptive daydreaming

i am constantly overthinking about everything i literally live in my mind and it’s starting to irritate me. i have mood swings that are onset sometimes by nothing or by my overthinking or by someone who got me angry. there was one instance where something in my mind decided i was going to be sad and irritated before i got in my house to see my parents. no i’m not schizophrenic i don’t hear voices or anything it was just that time. i tend to daydream like there no tomorrow. my daydreams last from seconds to minutes i’ve never daydream longer then 10mins. i have a phobia of bugs and spiders and when i encounter them i start to spasm and twitch but i don’t have tourette’s . this twitching only happens when i’m fearful or again when i’m overthinking or daydreaming about a scary situation like bugs or even a death of a close family member.

Possible trigger:

i have experience two anxiety attacks one where i thought about killing myself. i have thought about killing my self and i have starved myself. i have tried to cut myself but i always think about my mom and i can’t do it.

last night i had a breakdown because my dad refused to let me get a job. i know it seems petty but the fact that they looked at MY application and choose me for an interview made me feel wanted for once especially since i have applied to like 10 other places and none of them responded. but i had a breakdown while i was eating cereal which i threw up and my mom tried to comfort me and pushed her away and yelled at her and i knew i should have texted her i’m sorry but something told me no to. and then i started sobbing and i couldn’t breathe and i started hitting myself. i had a feeling of loneliness come over me which i feel all the time and then i have these headaches that’s have been going on for months now i would get a headaches at least every day and it been this away since january 2019 and it’s december now and they still happen i feel this stress on me and my head and its driving me crazy where i want go just run away or maybe i am just crazy somebody pleas help me

[Skeezyks]

Hello welovesolitude: I see this is your first post here on PC so... welcome to Psych Central. I'm sorry you are experiencing so much difficulty. Hopefully coming here to PC can be of some comfort & support for you.

We here on PC cannot offer mental health diagnoses. Plus I'm not a mental health professional. So I can't suggest to you what may be causing what you are experiencing. I don't recall you mentioning if you're seeing a mental health professional... perhaps a therapist or psychologist. However working with a mental health professional is an important first step in figuring out what is going on with you & what to do about it.

Two things you mentioned thinking you may have are depression & anxiety. Here are links to these 2 forums, here on PC, just in case you haven't already found them:

https://psychcentralforums.com/depression/

https://psychcentralforums.com/anxie...c-and-phobias/

And then here are links to 5 articles, from Psych Central's archives, that (hopefully) may be of some help:

Living with Depression: A Guide for Coping with Depressive Feelings | Psych Central

9 Ways to Reduce Anxiety Right Here, Right Now

15 Small Steps You Can Take Today to Improve Anxiety Symptoms

https://psychcentral.com/lib/top-10-...s-for-anxiety/

https://psychcentral.com/blog/10-way...d-empowerment/

I hope you find PC to be of benefit.

[Fuzzybear]

Welcome to pc

[*Beth*]

Hi! Welcome to PC. I know what constantly overthinking feels like...miserable. Of course, I don't know you well enough to even give you an idea of what might be causing the problems you are troubled with. Is there someone you can talk with...a doctor or counselor?