[QUEEN OF WANDS]

ruin my christmas day...my mother has always been emotionally abusive/neglectful and just plain mean sometimes..i have worked very hard to forget the things i am going through for today and just enjoy that it is christmas,,and i got to enjoy a couple of days having all of my 4 children with me,including half of today,,anyway my mother was being nice today and had not done or said anything negative all morning,,so i let my guard down..then wham ,out of the blue she started bringing up my ex boyfriend whom tried to attacked me repeating over and over he was going to kill me...asking if i would go meet him in secrecy for christmas behind everybodys back..is she crazy! im going to court in january so he will go to jail and i can be safe and move on to a better future..i have not given her any reason to suspect i would..geez i will rarely step outside because of fear of him,,and she has seen the hell i have gone through and the extreme fear in the past 2 months..she did it to hurt me..then as if that wasnt enough,when my ex husband came to pick up my older 3 children she had to go on and tell me about how he is such a good guy and that she had given him a big christmas hug and he hugged her back,,and that i should think of trying to win him back,,again, is she crazy! i spent 18 yrs in a very unhappy relationship with him(beginning at age 14)..and finally left when he i caught him with my so-called best friend..he may not have physically abused me but he was not good for me...now for the past hour my ptsd is kicking in and i cant shake it..my neck is burning from memories of the attack from my ex boyfriend , and she had to remind me of the christmases i spent enjoying family gatherings with my ex husband,it wasnt perfect but i wasnt alone and i did like his family..why did she do this,,its like it makes her feel good to cause me emotional pain,or boost her own .. something..i tried so hard to stay positive and feel good about myself and giving my children a happy christmas..i am now full of anger and sadness and cant stop the ptsd,,she is an idiot i have had to live with my entire life..i am so sick of her words that she says on purpose,,and yes she knows exactly what she is doing,,she does it on purpose..i cant wait until the trial is over so i can move far away from her!!! i dont like the word hate but that is how i feel right now about her

[Gus1234U]

i am cheering for your victory and your escape, Queen~!
best wishes~ Gus

[QUEEN OF WANDS]

ty gus..i kinda went on a rant there,sorry..she came up to my apartment again and of course was nice as pie..now i have guilt..how can i move away with her pleas for me to never move away from her(i havent told her i was moving yet)..for my own mental health i think it is a wise decision,,constant negativity then guilt from her..idk what to do about the relationship with her..i have told her numerous times in the past that how she talks causes pain but she acts like she is in the right then puts on a sob story..on top of that i dont know if the meds i started are working the way they are suppose to..i know the ones for the flashbacks/nightmares work but the antidepressants i think are making me aggitated..i snap quickly when i get upset,and feel angry..but then idk if its just the stress im under..i see the doc on the 29th and my last visit with him the pills seemed to be working(on them about 2 weeks at that time i think,now about 5-6 weeks)..i should have called him when i first started to notice it but didnt want to bother him,and again im not sure if its stress....my day has gotten better and the burning did not last more than an hour .my children are back home and i have been more positive......what a beautiful picture thank you for posting that...hope ur day was peaceful..MERRY CHRISTMAS..

[Yoda]

Sending you many hugs. I'm sorry you have to deal with this emotional abuse.

[kikki27]

Originally Posted by QUEEN OF WANDS

ruin my christmas day...my mother has always been emotionally abusive/neglectful and just plain mean sometimes..i have worked very hard to forget the things i am going through for today and just enjoy that it is christmas,,and i got to enjoy a couple of days having all of my 4 children with me,including half of today,,anyway my mother was being nice today and had not done or said anything negative all morning,,so i let my guard down..then wham ,out of the blue she started bringing up my ex boyfriend whom tried to attacked me repeating over and over he was going to kill me...asking if i would go meet him in secrecy for christmas behind everybodys back..is she crazy! im going to court in january so he will go to jail and i can be safe and move on to a better future..i have not given her any reason to suspect i would..geez i will rarely step outside because of fear of him,,and she has seen the hell i have gone through and the extreme fear in the past 2 months..she did it to hurt me..then as if that wasnt enough,when my ex husband came to pick up my older 3 children she had to go on and tell me about how he is such a good guy and that she had given him a big christmas hug and he hugged her back,,and that i should think of trying to win him back,,again, is she crazy! i spent 18 yrs in a very unhappy relationship with him(beginning at age 14)..and finally left when he i caught him with my so-called best friend..he may not have physically abused me but he was not good for me...now for the past hour my ptsd is kicking in and i cant shake it..my neck is burning from memories of the attack from my ex boyfriend , and she had to remind me of the christmases i spent enjoying family gatherings with my ex husband,it wasnt perfect but i wasnt alone and i did like his family..why did she do this,,its like it makes her feel good to cause me emotional pain,or boost her own .. something..i tried so hard to stay positive and feel good about myself and giving my children a happy christmas..i am now full of anger and sadness and cant stop the ptsd,,she is an idiot i have had to live with my entire life..i am so sick of her words that she says on purpose,,and yes she knows exactly what she is doing,,she does it on purpose..i cant wait until the trial is over so i can move far away from her!!! i dont like the word hate but that is how i feel right now about her

Omg she is mean .Bigg huggs do what you gotta do and dont worry about her somepeople dont have the right In our lives.I can relate thats how my sister is she know Iam the baby of the family and she tries to break me down by telling our family member lies about me and when they confront me over it she smiling In the corner over there so I dont be around her cause she just a mean person that wants too ruin my life.

[QUEEN OF WANDS]

so sorry to hear kikki..hopefully ur family will see through her...u keep being a good person and others will realize that..Meryy Christmas..and to u as well melissa

[kikki27]

Originally Posted by QUEEN OF WANDS

so sorry to hear kikki..hopefully ur family will see through her...u keep being a good person and others will realize that..Meryy Christmas..and to u as well melissa

Thank you.yeah thats true and merry christmas too you

[SophiaG]

Eh, stop talking to her. She may be your mother but you are in charge of your own well-being. People try to get me to talk to my dad but I don't want to so I dont.