[Anonymous37919]

My time in this world hasn't amounted to much over the years. I cannot even get a job either, due to having a criminal record for a series of pointless mishaps.

I lost my prior support, and have struggled ever since. I don't know what is going on with getting a new social worker. The previous one just ignored me anyway. There's also the funding crisis that affects finding any decent help. It's hard to trust doctors. My sister has had a lot of hassle to put up with as well, after they took her kids away.

Since about 4 years ago, an actress has constantly slandered me so that some people won't let me be an extra in these low budget films. However, I cannot sue anybody responsible for committing the defamation, as the legal costs would soar into the big figures. But I do have limited evidence indicating that she was the culprit.

It's worse if I have bouts of tiredness or major depression going on. I cannot seem to shake it off. To be honest, I doubt there is such a thing as a "fresh start" for me now. Every year is a huge disappointment. And, yeah. It's pathetic how some selfish bullies won't even cast me as an extra in their upcoming independent films. Now... that really is sad, considering that background actors are at the bottom of the food chain in the industry anyway.

I've also gave up with a lot of forums. I felt that message boards were not that helpful any more, or too many of them are populated by trolls. Especially on any forums that cover gaming. They always argue with noble members about things that don't really truly matter.

[MickeyCheeky]

I am so sorry things are being so hard for you, @Peter A! It seems like things are being REALLY difficult for you. Please hang in there. I am sure things will get better. Things WILL improve at some point if you just keep trying your best. We are here if you need to talk. You can also PM me ANYTIME! I am so sorry you don't have a lot of support right now! Keep fighting and keep rocking! Sending many safe, warm hugs to BOTH you, @Peter A, your Family, your Friends and ALL of your Loved Ones! Keep fighting and keep rocking NO MATTER WHAT HAPPENS, OK?!

[Anonymous37919]

Thanks.

I will probably have to retire from acting, unfortunately.

[Fuzzybear]

I'm sorry grrrrrrrr.

[Anonymous37919]

It happened again tonight. Somebody blocked me, and took my money.

All I did was send a message, saying I wanted to be an extra. I recognised at least one name involved with this director.

It's time to raise action, I think.

i'm confused..if all you did was send a message, how did they take your money? are there other communities you can try? I don't know the uk but let's say in the us, instead of nyc, try nj or say philly? I realize it might be a tight knit community...but it might be worth a try. perhaps contact colleges and see if they can hook you up with something..get your name back in the world thru work with them...it is a start..fresh path sort of. and if nothing else you will be working, using your skills, which will keep you active and feeling better, bonus points.

[Anonymous37919]

Oh, I live in Scotland.