[Rive1976]

When I was 14 I noticed an evil part of me that liked it when people were torn down and belittled. When I was in my early twenties. I am in my mid 40s now I began to fight between good and evil in myself through actions. It happens very rarely but some examples are letting someone go to a friends. Them not coming back for awhile and feeling scared for them but also feeling evil thinking they may have been hit by a car but not checking on them. Feeling duality within but it isn't under my control really, it just happens. Another example is loving animals but letting them run near traffic only to grab to get them to safety. You see how that is duality? Anyhow, what disorder is this linked to?

[bpcyclist]

Sometimes people who have psychosis issues, like me, receive weird or errant information from our sick brains. I went through a couple of years where, every time I was on a second or third floor patio, my brain would send me a thought wondering what would happen if I pushed someone off. So weird. I am a totally nonviolent person. Very gentle. But my brain sends me incorrect information sometimes. Do you think something like this could be going on with you?

[Rive1976]

Not sure. It feels really foreign to me when it happens. I won't say like a different personality or anything just foreign. Not like an intrusive thought though. Like the Devil on one shoulder and an Angel on the other.