No matter how muxh i try it will never get better

Sadly i feel like i will not be much longer before i off myself

im done . i try but nothing ever goes right. always goes downhill

Welcome to the forums. I'm sorry you are suffering.

I have had similar thoughts b4 and just wanted to let you know there are people on the forums(and other venues) who might be able to help. Praying and meditating have helped me as well along with support groups and therapy.

I hope you find something that will ease your burden.

Life turns on a dime. After suffering immensely for years and years with depression and anxiety, trying a whole slew of meds, being told my D & A were treatment resistant, then trying TMS, Acupuncture, Hypnotherapy, and other "non-traditional" treatments. I had sort of a sudden and unexpected re-awakening. Or, maybe it was just an awakening.

I have a whole metaphor about fire that ties in. But, the "moral of the story" is that, one day, for no apparent reason, I woke up and realized I kind of "felt better." I figured it was a fluke. The next day, same thing - woke up feeling "better." Rinse and repeat.

So far, I'm still out of the D & A mode - months later - and I have nothing specific to point at and say, "that is what made me feel better." It was just a new day. I struggled through each day, for years, and then, it was like a whole new life started for me.

So, keep hope alive, and just know that "feeling better" is a thing. It's not predictable, but it can and does happen! Best to you!

PS - I'm doing a blog about D & A if you're interested. https://imaginativefusion.wixsite.com/mysite/blog