[angel04]

for stupidity?? I am feeling very stupid and senseless this weekend. It's canadian thanksgiving but I'm not even interested. I have three research papers due and two mid-terms in the next two weeks and I can't write the papers. I have research up to my eyeballs but I just type inane babble and go off on tangents and i can't figure out what these papers are supposed to be about. Argh!!!!!! I just want to curl up on the floor and cry or quit school. This is too hard. I'm going to get sick again and I don't want that. Why can't I figure this out? I didn't think I was stupid until I tried to go to college.
*BIG sigh*
goodnight all
tina

[SeptemberMorn]

{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{Angel}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}} LOL You're NOT stupid but I know how you feel. Go ahead and have your cry, rest, maybe take a short nap. Hopefully your mind will clear and you'll be able to focus better after getting rid of the tension.

Good luck!

[shakes]

Tina,
You are not stupid!! Just the fact that you are in college is amazing. Mental illness and college just do not mix sometimes...at least it makes it so much harder to do. I am so sorry for your stress. One step at a time honey or else you will drive yourself mad.

Jessica

[mj14]

Tina,

I will repeat what the others have said...you are *not* stupid!!!

College has a way of showing us just how much we don't know...I actually had a professor who said that the only way he could find out how much we knew was to keep pushing until he got to something we didn't know. But that can be awfully hard for those of us who see anything short of perfection as a failure. But you are not expected to be perfect.

So take a breath, and just do what you can. And I have faith that you will do great.

{{{{{{{{{{{Tina}}}}}}}}}}}

Jo

[SweetCrusader]

Tina,

I'm in the same boat. I know how intimidating college can be, and how hard it is to deal with college when you are falling apart inside. It gets so lonely, too.

Let's be strong together, ok? Neither one of us is stupid and we can last until graduation day! Even if we aren't perfect or the single smartest people on campus, we are still good. Even if we don't get an A in every single class, we're still worth something. And there is a LOT more to being wise than just being book smart anyway, wouldn't you say? This is coming from a huge perfectionist with a driving need to be number ONE in every class (I'm challenging that in myself now, and working toward being the best ME instead of the best student).

((((hugs)))) if you want them

Angela

[eskielover]

Your first year in college is usually the hardest. It takes time to get into a pattern & realize what is expected of you. It feels like it is just too much to deal with sometimes.

I posted a thread about "College Students with depression, etc. there is hope!!!". I found out about the disabled student services when I went back to college. You can read about it in the post. It may help you get some releif in order to get yourself together.

Don't ever consider yourself a failure. I always had to work harder that everyone else in school just to get by, but with determination, I graduated with an AA in Music & a BS in computer Science (3.25 GPA). I actually found out I was smarter than I ever expected I would be. It just takes adjustment & TIME....but it is definitely worth it because it is something no one can take away from you.

YOU WILL SUCCEED...it happens if you want it.
Debbie K

[hamstergirl]

I have an IQ of 127, OK? University was nearly my undoing. I would have eventually washed out if I hadn't have dropped out. Unbeknownst to me, I had depression at the time.

School is hard enough as it is without stuff like mental illness. It's designed to weed out the people who mess around and party all the time. But if you have a mental illness, it can be really hard or if you're not ready for the 4 year commitment.

You are not stupid! You were bright enough to make it into college, nowadays that's no mean feat. You're just feeling the pressure.

You might want to go to the counselling services on campus and talk to them about it, see what they have to say.

YOU ARE NOT STUPID!!!!!

[angel04]

I love you guys. Thank you all for replying. I needed those hugs bigtime and I send many back to all of you.
I want this to work and I do strive to be top of the class. Maybe if I keep striving for that, I'll land somewhere close to it.
It's just the non-stop nature of it that gets to me. Even my weekend are filled with school. This past saturday I was researching a writing for 14 hours and sunday was 11 hours. I'd like a day where I don't have to do any thinking at all. My brain is so tired.
Thanks again everyone.
You're all wonderful.
Tina

[(JD)]

Angel, I agree with the rest: you aren't stupid! And when hamstergirl said her IQ, which is nearly genius, and she had struggles.. I concur: My IQ is 167 and I still had problems of my own in college!

My point is: in college you not only learn text book knowledge, but you learn about YOU and what You need and how You need to adjust to "college" LOL