[SerenitysWave]

<font color="purple"> something bad would happen to yourself that would land you in the hospital or something so your family will pay attention to you and feel like they care about you???

I do and often... its usually the only time that I feel like my family actually gives a rats behind about me is when I am hurt or sick and even then I dont always feel it....

does anyone else feel this way??</font>

[HALLIEBETH87]

ummmm *hug*

[kimmydawn]

Yes, mostly when I was a younger woman.

When I felt uncared for, unappreciated, or whatever, I'd think along those lines.

I now realize that's when I needed down time desperately. Once I started doing my own self-care and attending to my own needs, those thoughts ended.

I understand, hon.

KD

[SpottedOwl]

((SerenitysWave))

I certainly understand not getting any positive attention from my family. In my family, the people who are sick get the attention, and if you're doing ok -- you're ignored.

I did end up in the hospital and all of a sudden the whole family was in my life, and it was not a good thing. They made the whole experience much more traumatic than it needed to be, and I was the one who paid the price.

This may sound strange, but I would count your blessings. You don't need unhealthy people paying more attention to you, because they will not solve your problems, they will just bring their own problems with them.

You may never be able to change your family, but you can change how you treat yourself.

How can you pay some positive attention to yourself?

Not sure if that helps...but my thoughts are with you.

[Rapunzel]

I used to all the time. I wanted to die, and thought about suicide, but felt guilty about doing that (was close to attempting a few times, but never actually did try it), so I fantasized about getting cancer, and refusing treatment, and about people coming to visit me as I was dying, and finally being taken care of.

Not so much anymore though.

[Kiya]

yeah - same. trying to work on positive thoughts tho and do self care.
((((((((((serenity))))))))))))

[x_BabyG_x]

Yep. The guilt is shameful x

[Angel_of_the_Past]

Hugs from Angel

[Irine]

hmm..i wonder..maybe i had some of it..but if ever, the attention i wanted was from friends, not my family. From my family i have more than enough....

[SerenitysWave]

My family I know loves and cares for me, and they have thier ways of showing it, its feeling it that I have issues with and beleiveing its geniune... I dont know... I just want some moments where its all about me.... with my parenst they have a lot of guilt b/c of the surroundings I was raised in and exposed too... maybe its the feeling of being taken cared of is what I am yearning.... defianetly not getting the emotional connection or needs met... IDK what I am trying to say or how to explain...

I thank you all for your responses... I appreciate all the input... (((((((((((eveyone)))))))))