I need a break....but I didn't need this kind of break

It seems that there isn't a day that goes by that something bad or wrong doesn't happen right now......or maybe I should say for the last year or so this has been going on.

The day actually started off rather ok......I was expecting someone over for an estimate on the heat pump system & I was out in the yard potty walking my doggies one at a time (as they have a little jealousy issues with each other & end up fighting). I am always careful about them getting together & always overly cautious after Ceila broke her leg several years ago when she jumped off the bed wrong after getting into it with Destiny. I am an overprotective cautious doggie mommy. While I was walking JoGI, I started doing some weed pulling & while doing that, one of my neigobors pulled into my driveway. He had picked some fresh tomatoes from his garden & drove by to see if I would like some......I jumped at the fresh tomatoes.......love them cut up on my salads & on sandwiches. How sweet of my neighbor to stop by & introduce himself also. He also offered to hitch up his bush hog & mow my weedy yard that had gotten out of control when we had the cicadas.

Being the city person I am......I just couldn't handle being swarmed on my lawn tractor when they were so active for that month.....& it that time, the weeds (not the grass) grew out of control. When I finally was able to get to it with my lawn tractor, it was more than the little thing could handle very well. I accepted his offer of the bush hog but thought like normal people in California, that if the offer really came true, I would be surprised. I continued to work on the weeding & then came in the house & decided to cool off, take a shower & clean up a bit. The morning estimate ended up coming in the early afternoon. I sat down in the family room after that, playing on the computer.......I heard a noise & looked out the window....there was my neighbor with his bush hog, mowing my back yard. I thought.....wow, this is definitely going to be a good day. I had started baking some brownie bits before he started bush hogging, so I decided that would be a good way to thank him with a fresh batch of brownies to take home. We spent a little time chatting & then I let him get back to work & the the next heating/A/C company came out for the next estimate. We spent a long time talking about the system.

When I got done, I realized I needed to go to the pharmacy....to get my pain med patches that are due to be changed tomorrow morning. I decided to call the pharmacy to see if the prescription was ready as I had turned it in yesterday.....so I could pick it up the day before so I could have it ready when I shower early in the day on wednesday. Do you think the prescription could go without a problem???? NOOOOOO!!! Last month, they didn't have enough to fill my prescription......could only fill 1/2 because the mfg was back ordered on the 100ug/h patches......had to get another prescription from the Dr for the 50ug/h patches to fill the rest of the month with.....not only that, but because I am on the patience assistance, the Dr had to call them to get it OK'ed for them to fill the prescription.......so what do you know......this time, again, they needed the Dr's ok to fill this months prescription because of the problem last month??????what in the ?????? But they wouldn't fill my prescription today....they have to cause the Dr extra work just because the company is screwed up in their processing ability of the patches.....they have to cause both my Dr & me problems......it's a problem as the medication is a narcotic & it HAS to be filled on time without problems......then on top of that, they will only fill it every 30 days.....so from now on....I am going to be stuck having to fill it on the day I have to change my patches rather than having them already the day before.....just because they have to be jerks about it.

So I am in a frustrated mood now......my insurance agent with my homeowners policy /auto insurance dropped by (this was already planned) to take some photos of the house since he was in the area anyway. We were chatting. I went inside to put some shoes on to walk around outside in & picked got hold of Leo with his shorter leash. As I was going out the garage door I accidently dropped the leash & he took off......as he does when he wants to make a statement about my not giving him more freedom. He ran off down the driveway & across the street onto Anderson Circle Farm (the huge billion dollar cattle farm across the street from my farm). I wasn't going to run after him as then he makes it into a game.....so I walked back to the house, knowing he would turn around when he saw me not chasing him. Sure enough, he came running back under the fence, across the street & right into our yard......right into the area where I had Roscoe (my foster dog from the auto accident) tied to the tree on a 20 ft leash so he can have some running space. They stood there nose to nose. I tried walking quietly over to get Leo's leash & get him away before anything happened then wham the fight started. My insurance agent helped me grab them apart. I looked at Leo & there was blood from a spot on his leg.......I couldn't really tell what the wound looked like at with all the blood. I got him upstairs & into the shower & I still couldn't tell about the wound. He was limping on the leg & wasn't putting any weight on it.....wasn't sure about that either but thought the bite might just hurt that much. My insurance agent finished up & we chatted a little bit more.....right after he left, I put in a call to my new vet here (who has already met Destiny with having her teeth cleaned & pulled, & Tawny to have her teeth cleaned & pulled & spayed after she & Leo got together when she was in heat.....& I knew I wasn't up to handling puppies if she were pregnant). Luckily it was before 10pm (first time I have even had a vet emergency that wasn't much later than that) as they quit taking emergency calls after 10pm (that was why Roscoe's emergency vet treatment went to another local vet). He called me back almost immdeiately & said he could be at the office in 10 minutes. I gathered Leo together along with my purse & headed for the vet's office. I thought for sure that he would already be there as I lost track of all time....seemed like I went into a slow motion floating mode. The vet wasn't there when I arrived.....so I waited & in a couple of minutes, he was there. Looked at the wound (Leo had been licking it so it was cleaned up a bit more).....it was a canine sized puncture wound in the middle front left leg.....the vet was also worried about his not putting pressure on the leg, so decided to take xrays. He gave him a pain shot & he dozed off so they could do the xrays easier....then he was going to close up the wound with a couple of stitches as it did go into the muscle tissue. Sure enough, the xrays showed up a break in the small bone of the leg (not sure what the scientific name for that bone is.....but it's the smaller one). The strength of Roscoe's bite just broke the bone which was why he wouldn't put any weight on the leg. At least it wasn't a compound break like the one Celia had & with the bigger bone in tact, it was holding the smaller one in place so it wasn't obvious as the break in Celia's leg where both bones were broken). So now Leo had a splint on his leg & is stitched up. He is sleeping off the anesthetic at the vets office tonight.....this is the first night that I haven't been with Leo all his life as he goes with me everywhere I go....& by that I mean everywhere. I never leave him for more than a few hours in the hot summer when I won't take him in the truck with me.

Now I have to figure out a way to keep Leo quiet & healing that bone for several months. Knowing the issues I had with Celia's broken leg, the challenges are only beginning.

Of course, this came after another situation this weekend......when I drove over to pick up a ticket for the Beth Moore Bible study presentation that came available. I had parked on the street across from the house where the lady lives. I went into the house & then her kids wanted to see my doggies.....we played around with the doggies a bit, I got back into the truck to leave. I put it in reverse so I could turn out into the street without hitting the car infront me me & crunch.......what????? I got out & there was a little car in back of me that I couldn't even see in my mirrors & wouldn't you know, my trailer hitch smunched into the front bumper.....not just a front bumper, but it's the kind that is plastic & all one piece with the front of the car. It was just a little ding, but I might as well have smashed the whole thing completely since the whole thing will have to be replaced.....one little inexpensive ticket has become a huge expense.

When will it ever end. I keep thinking that there is going to run out of things that can go wrong in my life, but it seems that that isn't quite the fact as it seems that everyday, there is something new that hits me over the head.

I am so sad about Leo's situation.....this, exactly 2 months after Daddy dog (Excell) died after I stupidly let him out on a long leash with a choke chain collar & he strangled himself. Mind you, these are only a few of the things that have been going on in my life...it seems that everyday, there is some new issue that hits me over the head to let me know that I am not in control of the world around me.

I am exhausted......I need to hibernate for a long while, but with 7 doggies that need my care, that isn't about to happen......I just pray that soon, I will find some peace in my life without something else hitting me between the eyes.

I'm not complaining about my life as I love it very much here in Kentucky....it's just that it seems that with everything happening around me, it's more than ONE single person can handle (but I an not about to go back to the relationship I had in California with my husband just so I will have help to handle everything.....with his help I would be in even a bigger mess.

Just had to let out a little whine tonight through my tears,
Debbie

((((Eskie))) i will pray for your heartaches to go away from you forever...

((((Eskie))))

Wow, what a lot to have go on all at once. It would overwhelm anyone. I hope your little doggie heals fast.

I find that when things get too overwhelming that it helps me to take a few deep breaths and then make myself a nice mug of relaxing herbal tea and just sit and decompress. Usually as I review the day, I can find something to laugh about in the chaos.

I hope your next little while goes more smoothly.

--splitimage

You must be so physically and emotionally exhausted! One thing after another, isn't it?
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Hugs and prayers-Angel

That's exactly why I quit using that term I know I draw into my life what is in my mind and heart.

I sure know about the pain meds thing...had to find a way to work around the system. I do have a system set up with my pharmacist now, where I call the day before for one med, so he's sure if he doesn't have it, he orders it. If it's something that takes more time, then I used to put it on the calendar as to when to call and have them order whatever it was. Yes, for narcotics, if they fill ANY part of the script, it's gone..the whole thing. AND here in FL (IDK about other States) there is NO accounting back to the doctor who wrote the thing. So if I only received 10 pills out of hundred say, and then went to the doctor for another script I would NOT get it, because she had no way to know how many pills I got of the last script.

FL has a big problem with that sort of thing, and it's recently become a legal issue. (So many people coming to FL for their pain meds, as they can doctor shop and go to different pharmacies and no one knows the difference. ...You know, the Heath Ledger thing.) If I do what I need to, and then the pharmacy is still short, he will "owe" me... not quite legal I think, but only fair he says. He keeps a copy of the script or makes a note, and also writes how many I received on my bottle. What a hassle huh? And you and I know the guys who are "using" the system improperly probably don't go through any of this!

So sorry about the dog issues too. My ex was notorious for not taking care of the animals. We lost so many doggies and almost a son due to his lack of vigilance. But you are trying to do good on that, and it still happens. That's because they are dogs! I wish for you a nice person who can train your dogs for you free...just a little bit more...so they will behave better for you.

Did you get the Beth Moore update?

eskie what do you still have the dog from the accident? I thought for sure they would have picked it up by now! hang in there hon.

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((((((((((Nowheretorun, splitimage, inky, angel, sky, bebop, fuzzy))))))))))), thank you for your words of encouragement...times like this, they really do help.

Yes, I still have the doggie from the accident.....the girl was badly hurt in the accident....broken back in 3 places, a hip & the other hip fractured.....she is in a rehab treatment center (cardinal hill) for 3 months getting therapy so she can walk again.....so I am foster Mom for that time. Things were going smoothly until something goes wrong....it just takes one wrong move to make everything fall apart sometimes. He is a very good doggie.......just very strong....much stronger then my soft fluffy american eskimos. He is about the same size, but having part pit bull in him.....the muscle strength is there behind him. I have a water bottle that I squirt at him when he barks at the dogs when I potty walk everyone. I have him attached to a long leash & then a leash that allows him just enough space to get around on the end of my porch.

Last night I collapsed after all was done......woke up realizing that I can't go to the Beth Moore conference......as I can't leave Leo alone to be the quiet dog he has to be for his leg to heal.....he goes crazy when he isn't around me & for him to get that upset with the broken bone would only cause worse problems even if it's splinted. I remember when Celia broke both bones in her leg.....they used marrow from her hip to fix the small bone & pinned the big bone. I had her in an xpen where she couldn't move around & somehow, she stepped wrong on the let & bent the pin a few days after the surgery......I kept her quiet so very quiet, but when it came to taking the pin out of the leg, it ended up breaking off. With that in mind, I can't imaging trying to make sure Leo (who can't stand to be away from me) will stay quiet with me away from him for the 24 hours to go to the Beth Moore conference.....he doesn't do well with other people either, so leaving him with a baby sitter isn't really an option either.....surely wish it was. Last night when he had to stay at the vet's, was the first time he has ever been away from me ever in his life.....except when I leave him tied up for a few hours to run errands in the hot weather when I can't take him in the car with me.......this is what it's like having a house full of children I'm sure......these guys are my children.

I am still feeling that the evil one is behind some of these things happening to keep me away from the conference.....but at this moment, I don't have a workable solution to the problem & not going at this point seems to be the only option.

Sky, Like you, I always make sure the pharmacy has the meds I need that was why I turned in the prescription yesterday....so no unexpected surprises would hit me....then wham anyway....as least they have the meds available when they can get their paperwork act together. The problem last month was that the manufacturer was back ordered & there wasn't a phramacy in the country that had the meds that they could locate that easily.....that was why they had to change the 100ugh patches to the 50ugh patches & just double the amount for the last 1/2 of the month.....but patience assistance (who pays for my meds) has a stupid system set up where they go by the #, not by the dose....some stupid thing like that....so it forces the Dr to have to call for overrides whenever anything is different. In KY, they can owe you for 72 hours, then the DA says you have to have a new script.....which was what happened when they couldn't fill the 100ugh patches.....it went 15 days & they still didn't have them in....they seem to have a pretty good working system here but then I don't challenge the system with the # of meds anyway.....just trying to get the minimum I need seems to be a hassle when the game rules are stupid at the patience assistance program....by looking at #'s of patches not the strength...that's stupid when they have the information.

I have to chuckle about the training on the american eskimo dog's....you can have the best trainers & they can know exactly what to do, but they have a problem.....they have a mind that goes south sometimes & they just go off & do whatever they want no matter who is trying to make them obedient. I trained Excell for both the confirmation & the lower lever obedience. we showed & I actually got his obedience title.....but it took forever as every show, he would find something different to mess up on. He would come when called & right when he got to me, he veared off & went back to where the other dogs were.....hit the edge of the ring running as fast as he could. The next show, he would find something else to mess up.....he knew it all & knew exactly all the obedience commands.....but when he switched off his mind.....there was no getting through......it seems this is a trait of the eskies.....I dearly love them for their independence, but it's frustrating when you want, expect, need, them to obey NOW....not when when feel like it......seems to be a trait of the breed maybe.....wonder what the dog whisperer would say about that?????lol. I'm betting that given enough time, he the eskies would respond to him that way too.......they just seem to have the "blow you off" modes that hit. I always enjoyed the agility with Excell also...but he had his favorite obsticals & no matter what directions I gave him, he would go back & do his favoriets over & over again.....blowing off the course......it was funny to watch, but frustrating to deal with.

I love this breed more that any others......even with their quirky personalities......maybe because they are so much like me at times.

Thanks for all your supportive posts.....I honestly appreciate them with all I am going through right now.

Off to go to the vet.....get the stitches out of Tawny from her spaying 2 weeks ago. & pick up Leo.....& they finally got my prescription straightened out.....they forced the override through now....not within the 24 hours......so I am good to go.....got to get those patches as all this has left me with the beginnings of a super migraine that started last evening.

Thank's again,
Debbie

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I think you've taken on too much, Hon. Put off what you can and get rid of things you don't need to absolutely do. Try to get rid of Roscoe if you can. Won't the girl's parents take him?

One more thing... get "The Dog Whisperer" DVD. He has a large pack of dogs of all breeds and types and they never fight. It's all in the pack knowing that the owner is the Alpha! The guy's name is Cesar Millan. Here is his website: http://www.cesarmillaninc.com/ He's pictured with his dog pack.

((((((((((Leanne))))))))))),

Welcome to PC.....read a bit about you......that you do tapestry stood out.....wow, I am working on a tapestry....have been working on it for almost 20 years....lol. It is a huge mideval style one with a may & his lute, a fountain, & a lady & her harp.....needless to say, it's only 1/2 done as I got sidetracked from it.....it's here in KY with me & I found that working on the tapestry was actually very relaxing & reduced my anxiety very well....will be interested in hearing more about your tapestry work.

Yes, Tomi, I have watched the Dog Whisperer...Cesar is absolutely amazing......I am sure that I could learn a lot about the pack situation here & it would be very helpful.....I will have to look into his information.

Sadly, the girl that owns Roscoe doesn't have family......or at least any family that is in the outside world......don't know anything about the father.....but sounds like he is nowhere around & her Mother is in jail.....drug charges & stuff.....a real messed up person. She has a twin & an older sister......who are not really around for her either.....she is pretty much alone in this world also except for Roscoe & her 1 year old son....pretty messed up life & she is in rehab for 3 months healing the 3 breaks in her spine, broken hip & other fractured hip....she was pretty broken up in the accident.

I got Leo home....he is done pretty good.......they gave me some doggie valium to keep him calm & let his leg heal.....It felt good to finally get my shower, get my patches changed, lay down & fall asleep with my doggies all around me......I just completely colapsed & when I woke up, the migraine was gone & feeling much better. It is time to just stop for awhile. I didn't feel like I was really doing anything.....but doing absolutely NOTHING feels great.

Going to take the ticket for the Beth Moore weekend to one of the ladies who is going tonight....as least that is more money I can put toward the vet bill.....ouch!!!! emergency vet bills aren't cheap & it seems that my doggies never do anything during normal vet hours. Will post a photo of his little splinted leg......poor boo......he is the one you met at your house along with other little dog who ended up being tiny tammy (rather than tiny tim).

Thank you for the suggestion.....I will definitely look into Cesar as something needs to change in the system here....we need to live in peace without having to tip toe around each other & worry who might get near who & what fight might occur if I am not careful.....it is definitely a stressful way to deal with everyone here.

Thank's,
Debbie

on those meds... it isn't just the providers that are weird in their thinking. I take a small dose more often than the script, and wanted, essentially double the number of smaller dose pills rather than have to split a larger dose. MD won't do it, says the FDA will get her or something. But she has no issue with scribing the larger dose pills? I cut them in half.

Hopefully knowing that incompetence reigns will help you feel better.

I have the dog training tapes by Dave Dikeman, Command Performance... VCR!