[PlanningtoLive]

Dear Dr. P,

I wanted to let you know how very sorry I am that I seem to be constantly testing you and calling you so much. It dawned on me tonight after you called, yet again, that maybe that is what I was doing.

You see, I can't believe that you are real. My faith in psychiatrists/therapists was sorely shaken when Dr. K dumped me so abruptly........I was hostile and I believed, rightly so, when I met you.

You have, since the first day, shown me more stability and gentleness than anyone has. You terrify me with your dependability and caring. When you say you're going to do something, it is done. In turn, I have always been honest with you and placed my complete trust in you.

That scares me to death. I never meant to drive you away or test you. If I have, I apologize from my heart. My neediness is a flaw I believe, for more pain. Yet every email and phone call has illicited a caring response from you when asked for.

I got very lucky when I was assigned to you. I'm sure you wonder if some days it is all worth it, but you are very much appreciated. My life would certainly be a lot less bright if you were gone.

Thank you for caring and being there consistently, no matter what.

Mary Alice

[SeptemberMorn]

"Dr. P" is sure gonna like getting this letter!

[PlanningtoLive]

I hope so, Tomi. I sent him a copy of it..........I think I've been really unkind by maybe subconsciously testing him.

[sigh]

[Kayleigh]

yeah, pretty sure he'll like it...