[SweetSunshine]

I graduated from therapy today ,as some of you have expressed it to me~lol. I have been thinking alot about this day. I knew it would be hard in some ways ,but liberating in others. Its hard because I know I have lost that week to week, month to month support from my T.OHH and he is such a great guy too! I couldnt have been more lucky to have had such a great Guy for my T. I do know that I do have him there should I ever need anything.That is reassuring to me.He said he is only a phone call away.

SOooooooooooo, here I am in the world again , on my own , to do my thing, and live my life and hopefully to do it right. Using everything I have learned these past 20 months to the best of my ability. What have I learned and gained from this? First of all , I have gained more of a sense of trust and security and love within myself. That was a biggie for me. I got the crap out about my sexual abuse, realizing it wasnt my fault that it happened and I did nothing to deserve it. I wasnt bad, I didnt do anything wrong. I was just an innocent young girl who wasunfortunately there and available to my abuser. I have also learned that I have the ability to handle situations in my life better. I dont have to put up with people if I choose not to, should they put me down or disrespect me in anyway. I CAN and WILL walk away. Before , I just sat there and took it as it came. NEVER again!I have learned that its ok to put myself first. I dont have to please everyone else first, be it selfish or not.Sometimes we need to do this.I have been able to do nurturing things for myself , like many of you know I take my nightly bath lol with my lavender and a candle lit to relax me and to reflect on my day and the day to come. I really have come to cherish those times. I am finding I am willing to try anything once .That is one thing I have never felt I could do before , so my courage is getting back on track now!! YEAH!! I have even thought about flying now. I was always adament about not doing that at all!!! I have become more assertive and this is a real blessing to me. I am not as afraid to ask questions, cause I always was told my questions were stupid or invalid. Never again, will I feel like Anything I think or do is not a benefit to my life to enrich it or something I can grow from.

I want all of you to know that I will be of any help and support I can be to you. I may not always know the answers, but I am sure willing to listen and care. And I am deeply grateful to all of you for your love , kindness and support here.

Hugz~
Still here and learning &
Tryin2bme~

[lenjan]

WOW. You're an inspiration. I just started Year 7 of therapy and I hope to "graduate" at some point before I'm 90, LOL. Good for you!!!

Candy

[SweetCrusader]

((((((Tryin2bme)))))))))

Wow.

Incredible post!

Congratulations on this milestone in your life!

Angela

[Fuzzybear]

I'm so happy for you Tryin, thanks for sharing your great milestone!
(makes me think maybe I'll give therapy another try too if I could afford it grr )
((((((((((((((((((Hugs))))))))))))))))))

[kimmydawn]

((((((((((((((((( tryin )))))))))))))))))))) i wanna be JUST LIKE YOU!

what a wonderul outlook on your life to come and a great testiment to what t can do for a person!

ty so much for sharing and for being here and for being YOU. you are special to me.

be safe,

kimmydawn

[emwell]

This is fantastic news. Kind of makes me want to figure out how to work harder so I too can graduate. Thank you for the HOPE.

Sounds like we need to have a party in Celebration of your success.

[silver_queen]

tryin, what a beautiful post. You make me feel proud of you! It's such an achievement to graduate therapy having learned such skills for life. You rock!

~ silver

[jagster]

Congratulations on completing your therapy sessions. Your post was very inspiring to me. Good luck with all you do.

[Wants2Fly]

Thank you for an inspiring message. I am glad that you recognize this as a milestone and are taking time to "smell the flowers" and acknowledge your progress.

Brava! What a nice way to start the clean slate of the New Year.

Best wishes for a happy 2005 --

[SweetSunshine]

Thanks Everyone for your nice comments and well wishes. I so appreciate them. Therapy by far is not an easy road to go, which so many of you know this . But I do not regret it for one minute. It has been one of the best things I have ever done for myself. It has touched me so deeply that you guys recognize this and want to do better for yourselves. I in return am proud of you for wanting this for yourselves also.I wish you love and luck in all you do to reach the one goal that will bring you the most peace and happiness after.

Hugz~
Tryin2bme~ Beth

[fctwinkie]

Congratulations! i understand how you feel! i "graduated" a while back myself......and if something comes up you know you can always go back into therapy and it will be all right....Good for you!

[SweetSunshine]

Thanks FC Twinkie! I do appreciate your sentiments there. I think I still got alot to workthru but I do have the basic tools so that is good I think

Hugz
Tryin~ Beth

[Kayleigh]

Just a brief kudos.... (horray for tryin!)

[danfromminnesota]

Hey great job! Thats hard to go through but you made it! Congrats!

[Maya]

Congratulations! That is so super! I cannot imagine my life without my T at this point - but I have only been at it for 11 months and I am still uncovering things that happened to me that need to be worked through. I am so happy for you! Good luck with your life and may the light shine on your path everywhere you go!

[SweetSunshine]

Thanks Kay Kay , Dan and Mars!! I so appreciate your kudos! I still have my days where I am not doing the best but I do try ok? That is half the battle here is to keep PLUGGIN away at it and NOT giving up which I did last week, but glad I made it through. This is one of the best places for support a person could have. Thanks to all of you who stuck with me and helped me thru last week!! LOVE Y'ALL!!

Hugz~
Tryin2bme~ Beth