[Troy]

Have you just felt like you didn't belong here? You just keep coming back because it's a safe place and others are so polite here they won't tell you what a creep you are?

Have you returned after being away for awhile?

T.

[Brian37]

yes I have.......mostly due to my insecurities stemming from being a very solitary person and a lonely childhood....

never met you Troy, so I couldnt call you a creep unless I saw you in person and you met all the criteria to define a creep.....which doesnt exist ....sorry sarchasm is my specialty

anyway, everyone here has a different story and sometimes they may not be as friendly as we would like them to be

I just returned to posting after about a month's absence....

B

Troy you are not a creep you are a great guy who I have a lot of time for ! This is your insecurities talking its not real no matter how much you think it is, you are really well liked in chat by many many people.

Especialy me.

Hugs to a dear dear friend.

I've just come back after a month or so away. I tried another forum that was geared to my immediate problem, but I didn't fit in there either. I don't think anyone thinks more or less of me here or there. It would just seem we're all hurting and there's only so much compassion you can come up with for others when you don't have much for yourself.

[Fuzzybear]

((((((((((((( Troy ))))))))))))))

Troy, if its any help, I thought of you a couple of days ago, wondered how you had been. We haven't talked much but I read your posts.

(((troy))))

[Justgiving]

I'm sorry you feel you don't belong. I think that you belong here as much as I do and as well as anybody else.

But I don't think I belong anywhere. I can be so much a part of something but I don't feel I belong. Maybe I expect too much in this feeling or maybe it is me who push it aside. Maybe I don't trust to belong. For me to belong is something I think I will never achieve.

I also think you have a lot of caring and kindness in your heart and this means a lot. I am glad you are here with us on your journey.

[alleykat]

Heya,

I kinda feel like that generally anyway. But I'm new here and kinda have trouble fitting in anywhere. I'm hoping to maybe fit in a bit better here than in previous places but we'll see.

From what other people have posted above me, you're not a creep. I think if that were the case nobody would have replied at all, right?

x

[free2beme]

(((((Troy))))) (((((Alleykat)))))
Glad you're both here!

[bebop]

I have felt that at times myself. but then I have never left but I don't want to either! I miss alot of people when they are not here! you are one of them hon.

[MyBestKids2]

Yes, yes, and yes

But the peeps here are so cool and supportive, I just love the community!


Dee

[alleykat]

Thank you free2beme

x

[eskielover]

Troy,

You are just beginning your time here & it takes time to settle in anytime we come to a new place in our lives. It takes time to get to know the people & for the people to get to know you. There will always be few people who stand you enjoy sharing with more than others.....but as we post, we find more & more people that we start to relate to & start relating to us.

It's a growth process just like everything in life. I have been here since fall 2004 just before my Mother died of cancer & I went through a horrible trauma with the home care person during my initial time here which landed me in the medical hospital for almost a month. I was so into what was going on in my own life at the time I had little time to post, but when I did, the support was a miracle to me to see all the caring here. There can sometimes be rough times that make us wonder if we really belong, but as time goes on, we find the place really does end up feeling like a home & there are people who end up being like family (or even better than family) with all the love that is shared here.

I can say that I have been blessed to have been touched by several truely wonderful people here who are also a big part of my spiritual growth. This I have found to be a huge part of my healing process also & never imagined that I would find that kind of fellowship here. It seems like if we search & stay open, we can truely find the help we need for healing & personal growth in our lives.

Take your time & enjoy your experience.....you will find that you do fit in & you will find that when you are away, you are missed by those you have touched in their lives. As time passes, you will also find the self-confidence to know that you aren't a creep...that knowledge will be reinforced by the wonderful people here who aren't just being nice but who honestly care.

Take care,
Debbie

[Troy]

All of you are so nice to me and others. There is so much support here, all non judgmental. And I care so much for each of you. You can't know how much your remarks mean to me.
This is what I see in your words and this is what my logical brain tells me.

But my illogical brain doesn't feel that way at all. These are not questions for you to answer. I just need to get them out there.

Is it normal for me to react the wrong way to kind remarks?
Should I get defensive when someone tells me that I've been helpful or that I'm a nice guy?
Why should I feel like a creep for telling the truth about things?
Why should I feel so alone in a group of people?
Why should I disengage from conversations?
Why does success make me feel like a phony?

T

[Troy]

Ditto ... just needed to say it again

Originally Posted by Troy

All of you are so nice to me and others. There is so much support here, all non judgmental. And I care so much for each of you. You can't know how much your remarks mean to me.
This is what I see in your words and this is what my logical brain tells me.

But my illogical brain doesn't feel that way at all. These are not questions for you to answer. I just need to get them out there.

Is it normal for me to react the wrong way to kind remarks?
Should I get defensive when someone tells me that I've been helpful or that I'm a nice guy?
Why should I feel like a creep for telling the truth about things?
Why should I feel so alone in a group of people?
Why should I disengage from conversations?
Why does success make me feel like a phony?

T