[ree81]

Well it's been awhile since I have been here. Things got better for a little while, now nothing seems to be going right. Lately I just feel like everything I do is wrong, and someone always makes sure they point it out, everything. I really only get to see/spend time with my boyfriend on the weekends (cause of opposite work schedules) and lately no matter what I do or say seems to piss him off and he makes these comments like "ya know I am really starting to hate weekends" or "god your a nightmare", etc, etc... Every day, no matter who it is, I seem to do or say something wrong, at home or at work... I have been at my one job for a little over 4 years (part-time, the whole time) and I know more about this building, how to do things and do more than the full time people, yet I can't get any recognition for it, the full time people get the credit for it... I can't handle it anymore! My memory is really bad too, and everyone knows that, yet if I forget something, they get mad at me... I am just tired of making everyone mad or disappointed in me.. My self-esteme and confidence in myself is pretty much non existence anymore. I can't handle it anymore, I wish I could just run from it all and start over somewhere else.. I don't expect replies I just wanted to get it out and post it, so I can feel like I was talking to someone.