Taking a Break

I think I need to take a break from the boards. It's not anything that anybody has done, it's me. I just think it would be best. Thanks for all the support everybody has given me. I just need to be by myself right now.

((((((((((AngelGirl)))))))))))))



Hope you will be ok, and be safe, and come back to us soon sweetie!

Angela

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i hope you feel better soon. come back when you're ready, hon.

be safe,

kd

I posted in haste, but the more I think about it, I NEED this place. I'm just not in a good place right now and I don't want to inflict myself on anybody. I'll try to keep it to a minimum.

Sweetie you can't inflict if ppl want you and we want you here
Angie
P.S.
Amy says hi and feel better soooooon

Angel, Hang in there. Don't listen to that nasty self talk okay? Listen to us, we know it all right folks? Well, at least SOME of us do. Keep talking to us. Bet I made you grin a little. Be well.

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Angie
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Amy says hi and feel better soooooon

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Thanks and hi to Amy. I haven't felt this low in as long as I can remember. I'm crying uncontrollably. I'm being pulled under so fast that I can't stop it and right now I'm not sure I want to stop it either. I'm sooooooo depressed. I don't think I could be any more depressed than I am right now unless I ended it all, which right now might be a good idea. I'm sooooo tired of all this pain. And I'm so scared my phone's going to ring. My mom always calls me about this time and I always hide these moods from her so she doesn't worry about me. I just keep falling and falling at an alarming speed and I can't stop the tears and I can't pull it together for her either. Not this time. I'm too far gone. So, I'm not going to answer the phone. I just want to die. I hurt so much.

*hugs* Hope you're ok! we're here for you hun!

No Angel, dying is not the answer. Call a hotline or a hospital, a doc or a T and reach out now. It is a good thing to do for yourself, no shame. Reach out to someone near you now okay? Make a call.

As much as I want to kill myself, I won't. There's nobody to reach out to. I'm all alone and I HATE this.

I've changed my mind. I'm tired of the pain.

There are people to turning to. Hospitals have many people there who care, hotlines, us do. I hope with changing your mind, you don't mean killing yourself. That would be a very sad thing.

I hope you can get to feeling better. *hug*

AG?????

Has something triggered you? I am sorry you are feeling this way.

I am still here and on email when you ready. I don't know what else to say. Except that I understand what you are going through. And I know that you are feeling very alone.

I wish there was something I could do.

Sabrina

As usual, you are a very dear friend who patiently listens to my ramblings that probably don't make any sense. Thanks for being there for me last night. You'll never know how much that meant to me. I'm feeling so much better now.

It's so amazing to me how very dark it can be when you're being pulled towards evil and thinking it's the only way, when just a short time later the light shines again. What a contrast the light is to dark. The dark is a very frightening place and I know you understand that.

You are a very dear, dear friend to me. Luv ya bunches!!!

(((((((((((((Angelgirl))))))))))))) I understand and I am so sorry for your pain. I hope things improve for you.

Thanks wantstoheal. I'm feeling much better today. Hope this lasts for awhile. I've seen the abyss far too much lately.