[inkblot]

I'm really freaked from having to go to the courthouse for the order of protection today. I went with an officer from the local police department who walked me through everything. The order was granted and now since we are both homeless, I have to call 9-1-1 when I see him and have the responding officer serve him the papers. That freaks me, too. This is all new to me. Legal stuff scares me even if I am fine. He is the one harassing and stalking ME. Still, it's scary and freaky, and I hate this! I like having the protection of a court order for him to stay away from me and leave me and my car, etc, alone, but hate this all having to be done. I know, if he had just listened to me when I said to leave me alone and don't talk to me. But his response was that he never agreed to that. I couldn't take it anymore.

[LMo]

Hi Inkblot -- that's good news! I hope it works. But an overall question and I apologize if you've already discussed this: why are you homeless? It seems like it's not a safe situation for you and I've followed lots of your posts and I have to say I'm kind of worried about you. Is there anything I can do to help? Do you see a 'home' in the near future?

Love,
LMo

[inkblot]

Was laid off my job, looking for something new. PTSD didn't help the temp job I just had, and this guy caused a lot of PTSD symptoms to surface with his stalking. Things are pretty expensive around here, so I will need a really good paying job. I don't see that happening real soon, especially with this PTSD stuff over the past month or so. I am still watching out for this guy walking in parking lots, paranoid that maybe he'll be there. Saw my T last night. He asked about that, if I was still watching over my shoulder for this guy. Yeah, I am, even though he hasn't really done anything since last weekend. This guy was the focus of the majority of the time with my T. Usually he talks more about eating and other stuff. Eating issues was discussed but much more limited. He liked the idea of the order of protection. I don't see my T for a few more weeks yet. I already left him a voice mail that I got it, but I'm sure he'll be getting an emotional note left on his desk sometime before I go in next.

[inkblot]

My T does forensic psychology at another location so I consider that a benefit. Should anything more happen with this guy, my T will at least know or have some idea of how to handle things with me. I was so nervous and anxious when I talked to him yesterday. I was almost shaking. Okay, I was a little and I'm sure it showed. Wish I could talk to my T again--real soon. I miss him already.

[LMo]

Is there anything I/we can do to help, Inkblot?

[inkblot]

I really don't know what. Just hold on to a rope, maybe, and lasso me if I start getting too close to the edge. I've had a lot of stress the past weeks. My poor T has the voice mails and letters to prove it!

[LMo]

Ok. I've got the lasso. Be careful!

[Raynaadi]

*HUGS* Ink....i can't imagine what you're going through, so I'm not going to say I understand or the like. I hope everything works out soon, in one way or another....you shouldn't have to be going through this. Keep us posted.

Rayna

Inkie, I'm really sorry that you're going through such tough times. If there is anything we can do, let us know. Please keep posting and stay strong. We care.......pat