[WrongTurn]

Food has been my longest and hardest addiction. I beat alcohol. I beat cigarettes. But I just cant seem to get control of what I throw in my mouth!
I get so mad at myself. I get so frustrated and I am at a loss as to what I will ever do about this. Some times I just lose it and hit myself in the stomach as hard as I can but that is so dumb it does nothing to stop me from over eating the next day or even a few hours later. I have let my weight control so much of my life
I have all but ruled out any type of surgery and most diets I can never stick to for more then a week. The only thing I have had success at was complete starvation and now I cant even do that.
I dont expect any solutions I think I just need to let it out
It hurts and the few people I have around me, well I just cant tell them
So I say it here where I am sure you know of what I am talking about
Thanks for listening

[shortandcute]

Lots of hugs to you--I struggle with eating, also. In fact, today I totally stuffed myself with donuts. I also quit drinking and smoking, but eating is a challenge for me. The thing is, at least with cigarettes and alcohol, you can give those up completly but you can't exactly just not eat. There have been lots of times when I wished we didn't need food, because I feel like it would be easier for me not to eat at all then mess with "controlled eating." ((((((HUGS)))))

[WrongTurn]

Originally Posted by shortandcute

Lots of hugs to you--I struggle with eating, also. In fact, today I totally stuffed myself with donuts. I also quit drinking and smoking, but eating is a challenge for me. The thing is, at least with cigarettes and alcohol, you can give those up completly but you can't exactly just not eat. There have been lots of times when I wished we didn't need food, because I feel like it would be easier for me not to eat at all then mess with "controlled eating." ((((((HUGS)))))

Thanks I wish I could just go cold turkey on the food Have you ever heard of suneaters? Well the whole thing is crazy but I found myself really wanting to believe in it

[shortandcute]

Originally Posted by WrongTurn

Thanks I wish I could just go cold turkey on the food Have you ever heard of suneaters? Well the whole thing is crazy but I found myself really wanting to believe in it

yeah, i know what you mean.

[shortandcute]

Originally Posted by shortandcute

yeah, i know what you mean.

p.s. i looked up suneaters on google-and yes i wish i could do that.

[Ladyzero]

Suneaters ? Please share.

It's 5am right now, I'm awake and feeling very conscious that there's a large tub of Ben and Jerry's icecream calling me, in the freezer. 5am, who eats icecream at 5am ?

[hiddeng3nius]

I find that sometimes when people try to get over one addiction, they become addicted to something else to help get rid of their previous addiction if that makes sense. Especially with former smokers, they almost always turn to food to help them resist urges.

Food is difficult because we actually need it to survive but it's hard when the one thing you are trying to avoid, is the one thing you need to survive (granted it's more in the type of food you are supposed to be avoiding and not food altogether). Have you tried keeping a food journal? You don't have to be so specific with calorie counting. Just note what you ate, when you ate it, and your mood/what prompted you to eat it and you can start to see some patterns. For example, I notice that drinking something sweet triggers my appetite something fierce. Also note the difference between your appetite kicking up and real hunger.

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i also struggle with eating... i eat far too much in a day- most of the food i eat i don't eat because i need it, i eat it because it's their- and i feel guilty if i don't eat it.

hugs

[WrongTurn]

Originally Posted by hiddeng3nius

I find that sometimes when people try to get over one addiction, they become addicted to something else to help get rid of their previous addiction if that makes sense. Especially with former smokers, they almost always turn to food to help them resist urges.

Food is difficult because we actually need it to survive but it's hard when the one thing you are trying to avoid, is the one thing you need to survive (granted it's more in the type of food you are supposed to be avoiding and not food altogether). Have you tried keeping a food journal? You don't have to be so specific with calorie counting. Just note what you ate, when you ate it, and your mood/what prompted you to eat it and you can start to see some patterns. For example, I notice that drinking something sweet triggers my appetite something fierce. Also note the difference between your appetite kicking up and real hunger.

Hi and thanks for the advice. I have tried to keep a food journal before but it did not last long, I would eat and tell myself I would put it down later then not put it down until the next day and pretty soon I was back to putting nothing down. I could try again.
Yes my eating did go up after quitting the smokes but that has kind of leveled out.
I know its not right but I am just going to try eating next to nothing the next few days. It has worked in the past then a bad depression period will come and I will eat myself sick again. Maybe it wont happen for a few months and I can get something accomplished

[hiddeng3nius]

I've had that happen to me as well: I'll eat but be too lazy to write it in my journal so I started recapping in my head what just happened instead of writing it down if that makes sense.

The problem with drastically reducing your eating is that you are bound to break from it and binge. Have you tried eating smaller portions more frequently? I think the biggest help for you would be finding something to kill the time between the times you eat. Are you an emotional eater?

[RunningEagleRuns]

Originally Posted by Ladyzero

Suneaters ? Please share.

It's 5am right now, I'm awake and feeling very conscious that there's a large tub of Ben and Jerry's icecream calling me, in the freezer. 5am, who eats icecream at 5am ?

better than eating it late at night =P

[sunsetsunrise]

Originally Posted by Ladyzero

It's 5am right now, I'm awake and feeling very conscious that there's a large tub of Ben and Jerry's icecream calling me, in the freezer. 5am, who eats icecream at 5am ?

I would. Thats why i cannot have it in my home. I live alone. So i get to decide what I have in my home. I would eat that large tub of ice cream until it is all gone. Its just awful. fortunatly, I am good with not allowing myself to eat sugar. I find it can be easier to just cut out an entire food such as wheat or sugar. Both of which I do not eat. But its hard when i go to costco. I always feel like their samples are exempt from calories or rules

[Azza123]

Hey WrongTurn

I go up and down with my over/binge eating and in the past have tried to make up for it by eating very little or salads etc. I've recently been to see a naturopath who has put me on some supplements and she has also tweaked my diet a bit. It's nothing crazy, it's just focusing on what I should be eating rather than what I shouldn't.

One of the supplements I am taking is to balance out my blood sugar levels (I'm not diabetic). My naturopath said that I was having too much sugar in the morning and by the afternoon I was craving anything sweet and that would continue into the night. Often at night I would binge on sweet foods.

I've found that seeing a naturopath has been a really healthy kick up the butt for me to make sure I'm eating the right foods and nourishing my body.

I have also vowed to not be so hard on myself. I had so many negative thoughts that after over eating I would feel so disgusted in myself that I didn't have the will to even bother eating healthy. It's hard to be positive all the time, but I just try to keep repeating in my head, I'm better than this and I deserve better than this (when I'm about to binge). I have a long way to go, but I feel stronger in my mind.

I hope sharing some of my story helps a little.

I wish you the best. Keep on trying, you are worth it.