[mylove0mylife]

Through out my life I was always told I was overweight. Now I'm at the point where I'm actually considered morbidly obese and lately I've been gaining weight again. I'm at an ultimate high above 250, which is 120 lbs about where I want to be.

Personally, I don't think I eat that bad, but I guess it adds up. I drink a lot of diet soda and I drink sugar free energy drinks. There aren't any calories in either of these drinks but I know both aren't good to me or my anxiety issues.

Now here's my problem. Though I only have a bowl of cereal or a Smart one for breakfast and a Smart One for lunch I tend to enjoy snacking on chips while at work, and when I do get home dinner is usually fast food or something processed and bad for me. I get home at 10:30pm, so cooking isn't always in the books...and when I get depressed I want to eat cheetos and mac and cheese. And by cheetos I mean a big bag of cheese puffs and I'll finish those off by myself in two days. If I get mac and cheese I'll go back for 3rds and I'm pretty sure my portion is already twice the size of a normal amount.

When I'm depressed and I can go out I like Five Guys, or greasy ribs or burgers. Lots of red meat. Tonight due to laziness and stress I had about 5 helpings of pizza rolls.

I know how to fix it, I know how to eat healthier, I know how to lose weight, I just...don't want to.

Is this really an eating disorder or am I just being lazy and stressed and making excuses?

[Travelinglady]

I am no expert on eating disorders. We are a bunch of folks who have our own issues who are trying to help others. My reaction is, though, that it doesn't sound like a true eating disorder to me. It seems like a way of dealing with stress, and as you say, a lack of time to cook healthier foods. Also, you are in touch with reality and are not doing things like binging and purging.

You didn't ask for advice, but maybe your doctor's office can suggest a better eating plan.

I am obese myself, so I don't have much room to talk. I was trying to exercise by walking, but then I fell down some steps and now my knee isn't able to do much.

Hmm. Somebody needs to make macaroni and cheese that's still satisfying but not as fattening!

[spondiferous]

I have heard that a pretty good indicator is if you try - genuinely, honestly try - to change and find you can't, you probably have an eating disorder. It may not be obvious at first, but after awhile, if it's an eating disorder, you shouldn't have much trouble spotting it. There is also a questionnaire on the OA website (not that I'm suggesting you undertake the program itself, but it is a tool that can help you determine whether you might have an eating disorder):

http://www.oa.org/newcomers/is-oa-for-you/