[troubledteen19]

Hey, everyone. So I just binged a total of 2,000 calories and I feel disgusting. I want to puke out that cheesecake and every other unnecessary calorie I consumed. Basically, I've been on an 800 calorie restriction for a few months now and I recently decreased it to 700. Along with my regular visits to the gym, I was making progress and hoping to reach my goal not too far from now. But I hit rock bottom today. All of my emotions, stresses, fears and whatnot just overwhelmed me. I hate myself for losing control and eating like the fat pig that I am. I'm trying to tell myself that I'll go to the gym longer for the rest of the week to burn it off and stuff but I just feel so gross and disgusted. I've disappointed myself yet again and I can't stand the sight of my own reflection. I suffer from BDD and have been staring at my imperfect body with more and more hatred. I just don't know what to do anymore. I've been considering SI more and more often lately and I feel so lost..

[Travelinglady]

Hey, troubledteen19, and welcome to Psych Central! Did your doc put you on such a calorie-restricted diet? No wonder you want to binge. I would, too.

You have NOT ruined everything. Just start back with your eating plan--and maybe get some exercise. Even some walking.

Check out this forum, please, looking at the stickies at the top: http://forums.psychcentral.com/self-injury/.

Okay? You will be all right.

[CalmingOcean]

Originally Posted by troubledteen19

Hey, everyone. So I just binged a total of 2,000 calories and I feel disgusting. I want to puke out that cheesecake and every other unnecessary calorie I consumed. Basically, I've been on an 800 calorie restriction for a few months now and I recently decreased it to 700. Along with my regular visits to the gym, I was making progress and hoping to reach my goal not too far from now. But I hit rock bottom today. All of my emotions, stresses, fears and whatnot just overwhelmed me. I hate myself for losing control and eating like the fat pig that I am. I'm trying to tell myself that I'll go to the gym longer for the rest of the week to burn it off and stuff but I just feel so gross and disgusted. I've disappointed myself yet again and I can't stand the sight of my own reflection. I suffer from BDD and have been staring at my imperfect body with more and more hatred. I just don't know what to do anymore. I've been considering SI more and more often lately and I feel so lost..

I very curious about your low calorie intake as well? I will have to agree it's no wonder you binged!

But that say, my goodness don't beat your self up (haha easier said that done I know I know). Your body was just asking for the extra calories you may have been depriving it off ? (Not sure but it seems to make sense

I really do feel for you, I suffer the same and so taking my own advice sometimes would be helpful. If you can get through this binge without the purge, you will be my hero. . I haven't been able to yet, thank goodness it has been a while since my last binge. But it is the monster in the closet.

[Xacatecas]

Heya, sorry I'm a bit late, I hadn't seen your post!

The thing it's important to remember is that weight gain is just as slow a process as weight loss, 2000 calories is a tiny tiny amount!

If you think about it rationally, you are using probably close to 1200 calories a day with the gym and everything. With a 700-800 a day diet you're on 49-56,000 per week while using 84,000. Even if you add an extra 1300, you're still in such a huge deficit it won't make aaaannnnyyyyy difference to losing weight!

In fact if you believe what a bunch of people think, it might actually lead to your metabolism speeding up and HELPING weight loss for the future!

I'm sure that even if you can't stand your reflection, most people would be totally jealous all the same!


Huggsssss

[troubledteen19]

Thank you, everyoneee!