Were you loved with food? ***Trigger warning***

I lived in a house where food was a huge part of the day....seemed like my mother was constantly cooking though my dad worked nights, we ate before he went to work & then she would always make something to eat in the evenings & then....oh, you always have to have breakfast before school.

Our family is short....like just over 5foot. I was always what I considered chunky growing up but kept promising myself that I wouldn't end up like my mother who though not obese was what seemed to me overweight.

It my desire to NOT be anything like my mother, I went the opposite way & did what ever was needed to make sure that happened. For me however, I always found that stress made me loose weight no matter what the stress was....from mid-terms to finals, to being married & pregnant. That was a key issue because I saw other women getting pregnant & just blowing up like a blimp & then never loosing the weight....I promised myself that was NOT going to happen either....& it didn't....turned out I didn't gain much more than my daughter weighed during my pregnancy & made sure there was no junk food in the house. Throughout my career, I always played racquetball at lunch with the guys rather than eat & would snack on a lunch I brought when I got back to work.

Food was always a part of all the celebrations but I was always a very slow eater in the first place & many times everyone else was done eating while I was still working of my dinner, so I would just quit eating....maybe my slowness helped me. We had good snacks around the home much of the time, but I wasn't always that interested in eating them unless it was during finals or some time when my stress level was high & I was loosing weight anyway.

Guess I must have countered the food thing that went on out of determination to NOT allow it to win in me....but it's easy to understand as I have many friends who find a great comfort in foods & usually the foods that aren't low in calories or fat content. I always use real butter to do my cooking in but have found that in reality, it's healthier for the body & is actually less fattening than the other options with all their additives that are put in during their processing.