[CognitoSchiz1989]

Desperate probably doesn't even describe how much I want help. I have started so many "diets". I started my last one on November 30, 2015. I was SURE this would stick. This would be my last "diet". It was going to be a lifestyle change. I was going to loose the weight and for good! I was going great. Even made it through Christmas with close to nothing gained. In total, I ended up losing double digit pounds. A record for me, really. I got down to a certain weight and boom, done. Stopped working out in January 2016 and traded my healthy eating habits for crap ones. Yet again... I don't get what causes me to stop. Is it my depression? Was I hurting somewhere? Did I get bored? What in the HELL caused me to stop!? I was doing so good! I am afraid to weigh myself now because I have been binge eating for months now. When I say binge eating it is no joking matter. I sit in bed and eat bags and bags of Easter candy (as of the holiday season). I can't stop. I feel as if I am out of control. Please say you understand this feeling. I have been struggling with this binge eating since I got sober in 2011. Since December 2011 I have gained a lot of weight.

Help. Please... I am DESPERATE!

[Skeezyks]

Hello CognitoSchiz1989: I'm sorry you're having such a difficult time. I'm afraid I don't really have much to offer other than to send some warm wishes your way with the hope that you will be able to find deep peace in your life. I have read that many, if not most, people who go on diets sooner or later gain back all of the weight they lost... sometimes more. So for what it's worth, you're probably not alone in what you are experiencing.

This is probably not unlike exercise or any other discipline. Many of us start out completely committed to some new activity. We go full-bore for a while. But then as time passes we lose our commitment. Or something happens that knocks us off our stride & we lose focus. I know this has happened with me many times over the years. I think this is particularly likely when we are struggling along on our own. Perhaps it is time for you to look into the possibility of an eating disorders program? ... just a thought.... I wish you well...

[CognitoSchiz1989]

Thank you so much for your kind words. I think I should look into help for eating disorders. I went to rehab and got sober. Once I completed my inpatient rehab I stayed at a outpatient sober living. They constantly told me I had an eating disorder and even threatened to send me inpatient for it. I honestly wish I would have listened to them. I don't think my parents could have afforded the $20,000/monthly it would have cost for me to go through the program. I actually left and said "f%^* you!". I ended up being homeless and then hospitalized a few days later. I guess what I am saying is that maybe I should have listened.

hey.

how are you doing now?

just thought i'd check in and see how it was going.

((((hugs)))))

[CognitoSchiz1989]

I am still having problems with my appetite. My self-esteem is still devastatingly low. I am trying to do positive affirmations when I look in the mirror and I think it helps a little. Thank you for checking in on me.

Hi there. I completely understand. Completely

The only time I have ever 'successfully' lost weight was when I was diligent about making sure there was NOTHING in the house that was 'unsuitable' to eat and I cycled to & from work instead of driving

You know how so many experts go on about emotional eating? I don't feel anything when I'm eating. But if there is a packet of chocolate biscuits in the house then that's what goes in my mouth. All of them

It is OUR hand that picks up the food and puts it in OUR mouth. It is OUR decision to purchase foods that are high in fat or sugar or whatever .... WE NEED TO HELP OURSELVES and give ourselves time to let it all work

So my suggestions to you are .... 1) genuinely clear everything but I mean EVERYTHING out of your world that you don't want in your mouth 2) plan to lose weight over a long period of time like a WHOLE YEAR and then just be logical 2) Establish a simple routine around meals but don't obsess. Keep the meals simple, fresh and delicious and chew everything thoroughly

I bet with everything you have ever done around this topic you are basically an expert on what it takes. Not the silly fads. Not the quick fixes. If someone else came to you and asked for help you would know what to say .... so say it to yourself. Do it for yourself

Move more. Eat less. Eat real food. Eat sensible combinations of food. Chew everything thoroughly. Drink water. Keep a journal. Be kind to yourself and plan your achievement to be over a LOGICAL period of time (like a year)

LOVE YOURSELF. LOVE YOURSELF. CHERISH ALL YOUR GOOD QUALITIES. LOVE YOURSELF. BE KIND TO YOURSELF. BE PROUD OF YOUR ACHIEVEMENTS. BE AWARE OF YOUR FALTERING AND PICK YOURSELF UP AND KEEP GOING. L O V E Y O U R S E L F

[Nimportequoi]

[QUOTEWhen I say binge eating it is no joking matter. I sit in bed and eat bags and bags of Easter candy (as of the holiday season)][/QUOTE]
Yup. Ok. Totally the same situation with me... it's horrible.

[Fluffins]

I hear you. I had a period of control too then it all went out the window. I didn't want to try again cuz it seemed hopeless. I'm starting with a new therapist next week and we'll see. Today was Day one of a long journey.

[Anrea]

Hoping to revive this thread. Hoping CognitoSchiz is still checking on PsychCentral and will respond.

How are you?

[CognitoSchiz1989]

I am doing better. My binge eating is at a low right now. Thank goodness. But I am sure it will rear its ugly head again.

[Anrea]

Originally Posted by CognitoSchiz1989

I am doing better. My binge eating is at a low right now. Thank goodness. But I am sure it will rear its ugly head again.

Your signature includes such an optimistic quote from Reed Waddle that I believe you have a base of expectation for improvement written into your heart. With that, you cannot fail.

[Wilsoll09]

I feel you. I am having a similar issue, my eating has gotten out of control and I am in a deep depression. I am recently engaged and would like to have the wedding next year but I can't stand to look at my body. I have to do some soon

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