Schizotypal PD.

Hello,
I was just wondering if anyone else on here has schizotypal personality disorder? I did note the distinct lack of a sub forum, so it occurred to me that mayhaps there was not many here. It is just nice sometimes to know you are not the only having these difficulties.

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I've got a dx of schizoid if thats any help?
How do you experience your schizotypal type, whats it like?

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They say that Schizoid is one part of the spectrum, schizotypal is the middle and schizophrenia is the other side. Maybe we have similar difficulties.
I don't really know how to sum up feeling this way. I hate it most of the time. I feel perpetually disassociated. I'm absolutely useless in social situations. Sometimes I want to be around people but I go mute, get so anxious and paranoid of others that I appear kin to someone who has taken speed (constantly moving and incoherent speech). Other times I stay in and stare at a wall, pace and fantasize for hours at a time. I don’t understand people especially in social settings; cues and body language are unfortunately often misinterpreted. I laugh when I shouldn’t and become angry when there is no reason to. That is when I do feel anything which is rare.
I have certain beliefs I question profusely yet still believe intensely. For example I believe that children can suck your soul out through touch and adults, again through touch can implant thoughts. I am convinced there are mind readers everywhere, so I have to wear sunglasses to try and quell their prying. At the minute I am struggling with the police following me. Which I can judge as doubtful yet dispelling the thought is certainly difficult.
I can’t work. I have tried in the past with disastrous results. Although I would love to.
I don’t want to rant so I will just say this for now any specific questions please ask me.

One of my Dx's is Schizotypal PD.
(Along with Atypical Depression, Borderline PD, DDNOS (maybe DID) and alcoholism)
I really don't understand that much about it. Whenever I've asked my Ts & pdocs about it, they tell me that my meds are helping and that working on my other issues will help with that, too. I know I'm not as "weird" as I used to be so something may be helping.

I really like the way you describe it. In some ways, it just feels like I'm from another planet. I don't always understand people, I think differently than they do. I "know and understand" things they don't, whether or not those things make sense (even to me!). Kind of like I'm just not in the same reality as everyone else. I like the way you describe it better.

I wish I knew more. I wish I knew more people with it. I wish I knew something...

Hi Kendyll I posted this in the resource section but thought it would be of particular use to you :

http://schizotypaldisorder.webs.com/

I know what you mean when you say that you feel like you are from another planet sometimes or from another reality. I find this aspect the hardest to cope with.

If you ever need to talk to someone about these issues feel free to ask me.

Wow. Great site!
I don't talk about it much. People think I'm weird when I do. But thanks - I may take you up on it sometime.

I'm the same...and I always know what other people are thinking... I also have a problem with believing in the powers of telepathy and ESP... I even have magical symbols tatooed on me to help develop these powers... I know it's wrong but its what I believe... I don't talk about it much either, when I did it made people think I was nuts so now I don't say much about it... I haven't been dx yet.

Its odd, because when I hear you say this, I completely relate. You do express it well and very accurately, here. We have a sort of different world, so of course its hard to relate the way most people do.

I used to ruin every relationship with a man that got as far as a date by going completely dumb. I went awol inside and lost all contact with the otherwise spontaneous and alive person I can also be. It was deadly.

Lots of what you say is also included in the schizoid thing, like you say, its all a spectrum. I also get invasve thoughts that one cant just will away.

check out www.selfinexile.com

Why is it wrong to believe in your beliefs? I don't talk much period to others, but when it comes down to it.. I'm not going to hide who I really am. I just don't understand... why having "magical beliefs" is a big ol' problem.

Maybe that's it? I just don't get it.

Even a few in my family hold the same or similar beliefs.. as mine.

Hi there, I had dx of schizoeffective if that helps......

Don't be a stranger!!

Michah

Everyone say's it's wrong and makes a big fuss about it ... so it's better to just agree... but no one will ever change what I believe and know.