Furious, crazy, unstable, insane and unemployed.

I've been gritting my teeth and muttering to myself about how furious I feel all the time. I think a part of the problem is hayfever. My brain feels like it's overheating all the time. The congested sinuses really get to me, every few days, too.

Allergy medicine helps take some of the "edge'' off. Does anyone here who regularly experiences anger and anxiety also have allergies? Do you find any relief from anti-histamines?

After taking some Loratadine and Pseudo-ephedrine hydro chloride, I don't feel like... I'm going to go completely insane. Well, maybe not completely. Just not as insane as usual.

After a few weeks of experimenting with amino acid supplements and vitamins I've come to the conclusion that I am just insane and in need of a full-frontal lobotomy.

Everytime I observe someone working, I think to myself whether I am stable/sane enough to do what they do.

Cashier? No, I am too insane. Bus driver? No, I'm too untstable. Busboy? No, I am too angry all the time. Mailman? No, I am too disturbed and would probably wind up going, "Postal." Accountant? No, I am too crazy and lack mathematical skills. Chef? No, I'm too this or too that.

Is crazy all that I am? I THINK so. I obsessive about how crazy I feel.

Do I just THINK I'm crazy? Is thinking that one is crazy all the time a kind of craziness?

Maybe I need a crazy job. I'd probably be cool and focused if I was removing live landmines for a living. I don't think the US has a problem with unexploded mines. I might need to travel abroad to find such a gig.
I think being a member of a bomb squad requires knowledge in forensic science. Count that one out, I guess.

I could become a soldier of fortune. A mercenary sent by the CIA to third-world hotspots. I consider that rather insane, but it's just not my nature to kill people, even if the money was good.

Maybe I can make a career out of being a participant in clinical drug trials. A human guinea pig, so to speak.

Life seems to ordinary. Maybe I'm too ordinary. Perhaps I should stop suppressing my emotions so much and just let it out. Find something to channel all of this energy into.

I'd probably be relatively at ease in the middle of some civil war. Why does life seem so chaotic in my head?

I'm going slam utensils and bang some pots and pans around in the kitchen now.

Ah, I can invision my future as the world's angriest chef. "Shut up and sit down! Eat this! Like it???!!! You better like it!!!!! These dishes are still dirty!!!! Who cleaned these?? You're fired!!!!! What? You're allergic to MSG? Tough crap!!!! Get out of my restaurant!!!!!!!!!"

I can feel it simmering, just below my tolerance level. Almost over-cooked.

Have you tried being any of those things you listed? If you haven't, you can't say you know whether or not you'd be able to do them...

Hello, hereiam.

You're right, hereiam. Thank you for pointing this out. I just haven't tried.

What I do is think about doing things and imagine myself failing miserably. Some people find it helpful to imagine themselves doing something successfully before actually ingaging in the activity.

(((((((((Fried))))))))) my wonderful cook. I have allergies - year round, and i do have some anger problem. I think allergies makes us more miserable than we already are.

Just earlier this week, I got very frustrated with the phone at work - cuz it didn't work well. My boss asked me what the big deal was, it was just a phone.

There's a lot of anger in me. I just cant seem to keep a lid on it. More anger and feeling crazy. Is that maybe what you really feel? anger and not really craz?

Oh, I take claritin - it helps some.

Take care, huggles

Oh my gosh!!! I can totally relate... I am out of work and I feel like I am going crazy too. I have been under a lot of stress more so than ever before, and I have been experiencing allergies and sinus headaches and being extremley cold... could all this be related to stress and feeling like we are going crazy... job searching in it self is stressful and for me I have not had to look for employment in over 10 years... Now days the interviewing process and all the competition is crazy... not to mention finances!!!! Looking back when I was feeling stressed in other situtions I don't recall feeling like my head was on fire...could stress be the cause????

When I hear my partner complain about work I just go crazy, I want to say get a grip, it sure has made me relized when I do find employment I will not complain... I will look back on this and remember...in the mean time I keep searching and getting more angry... on top of being bio polor... I too have thoughts what could I do that is different or change careers, but all the things you decribed I too feel the same way!!!

Thinking crazy and feeling crazy makes for a lot of craziness.

When will it be over???

Well, I wish you luck in your job hunting etc... and remember you are not alone... at least for me by reading your subject has been refreshing knowing for myself I am not alone...

It sounds like a reverse SAD that seasonal affective disorder (?) that my friend has.

And I don't know about the insane part or not- i'm no DR. but I know when my sinus' bother me it can drive me NUTS lol. I get really annoyed with everything and anything.

(((((((( fried ))))))))