[BrokenNBeautiful]

As most of you may know, I was diagnosed with BPD in the early 2000's.

I just looked up some of the disorders like Histrionic, Dependent, Avoidant, and Narcissistic.

And looked again at "Borderline".

I think many ppl in my life, pro and laymen, have thought that I had histrionic, dependent, and narcissistic when I just looked up their symptoms and found that the only ones that fit were "Borderline" (mostly) "Dependent", and "Avoidant".

But Borderline was the most correct one for me, regardless whether or not it was diagnosed by a doctor.

I am sharing this because people have misunderstood my personality. They think I am unfeeling, punitive, self-centered, and clingy, when I avoid those behaviors! If anything, I function more like Avoidant, if not Borderline. I don't want to be the center of attention all the time, I don't feel like a "princess" and I think of others so much that my head hurts every day!

I wish that people would educate themselves (pros and laymen alike) about these disorders instead of prejudging us (me) so often.

Billi

[Lil Ant Lady]

To be honest, I don't know about yourself and where you come from as to how you have been treated, but the case of myself... I think pdocs are far to quick to jump in with bpd. I don't even meet half of the criteria but that's what they slapped on me!! I am arguing my diagnosis because I was admitted to hospital after an o.d, seen by one pysch 3 times in four weeks and Then bpd was put down on the table. They saw me at my worst also because I was taken off all meds and was off them weeks prior. I'm really not happy about what they have done to me. I clearly have a problem. My head is messed up when not medicated but I'm arguing the toss because I don't think they could be bothered to assess me properly or in a decent timeframe. I want an accurate diagnosis before I'm happy not one they just plucked out because its like a blanket disorder they use cos they aren't sure. I don't know what I have. Maybe post natal depression still? Although I think I'm a bit too messed up to be just solely depressed. I suspect cyclothymia but I'm gonna keep on hounding until I get a satisfactory answer.

I don't suppose the diagnosis matters tho, if the treatment given is effective!!

[BrokenNBeautiful]

thanks.

I feel that doctors are very quick.

The last one who assessed me back in 2010 for meds, literally slammed her fingers on the keyboard of her computer, as she was taking notes and dismissed me, sending me to the DBT clinic that she knew was not even covered by my insurance. She did not want to be bothered with me, would not see me on a regular basis, even though my meds were quite stable and regular.

I think she blackballed me, even so that my pharmacy would refuse to fill my prescriptions. No proof, but an attitude like hers...i didn 't know.

Billi