[dande1ion]

Hi all I'm fairly new here and belong to a group on yahoo called http://health.groups.yahoo.com/group/Schizoid - it's great and I was wondering how many here are Schizoid Personality Disorder? If so, would you please share your experience on having this PD. I've struggled w/it most of my life since childhood. It's difficult at times to live in an external world and have such a rich interior and have most conversations begin and end "inside". Sometimes I want to try to be more 'here' instead of dissociated, but my attempts are always thwarted by either (real or not) perceived hindrances and nightmares. From time to time I think it'd be great to live beyond the glass, instead of feeling like I'm always overly protected by my defense mechanisms. So far I wrote down a number but haven't called for counseling yet - but will most likely soon. As for now I'm getting over allergies and just getting strong again physically. Been feeling outta touch as I haven't connected w/anyone in some time and staying home due to sickness doesn't help much. But I'm here and writing today........ please share if you will, I'd love to hear from you.

-dande1ion

Hi dande1ion!

I don't have SPD, but I do understand about dissociation and the frustrations involved.

Also, always being overly protected by your defense mechanisms is exhausting. I am the same way.

Hope you post again soon!

Petunia

[Perzephone]

I'm beginning to feel this may be part of what's 'wrong' with me, and question if it actually is a disorder at all, or simply a personality type, a deeper version of being introverted. I just haven't really had the time to seek out a psychiatrist to talk it over with them... I'm also wondering, as I think about my behavior as a child & some of my habits as an adult, if maybe I don't have a mild case of Asperger's syndrome, which is a type of autism that shares many traits of a schizoid personality.

I'm thinking after the semester ends & I have a couple of weeks' break, I may seek a psychiatrist for a true diagnosis. I always just assumed my desire to be left alone & living in my head & the over-analysis of everything was symptomatic of depression & alcoholism... but when I'm brutally honest with myself, I have to admit that I don't really care about the fact that I'm happier to be alone w/myself & my thoughts than with other people.

[jimon]

Hello, I have SPD and am working with an analyst, its slow going , it took two years to start to open up. part of the prob. was i felt that if she REALLY knew how i felt she would holler "WORTHLESS LOSER" and kick me out. thats transferrence or projection. im the one thinking loser--- not her.(i dont interact with people much and sabotage it when i do).I would get a diagnosis from a psychologist and try therapy. it can take a while to find a good one but its definitly worth it