[tracylee]

I thought i had lost the paranoia thing......... but its kicked me nicely in the butt again this weekend.

You all know that I have a brilliant man (or shud do now coz i have mentioned him a fair bit).

Anyway, it seems strange to me, but my mother has been coming around more often since he has been here and i feel like she is sort of flirting with him. Or thats what it looks like to me. I havent done the stupid thing of speaking to either of them about it but it is seriously seriously driving me nuts............. i hate this feeling like everyone is out to do something horrible but i cant help it.

(My ex husband DID make moves on her in the past which she obviously rejected)

[(JD)]

grrrr. I would think about telling him, in case he isn't fully aware of her possible intentions. TC

[tracylee]

I did sort of make a joke about the whole issue, but cant figure out why i am so paranoid, i thought it was sorted by meds, this sucks and i will add an extra grrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr

Haven't been around much lately...... been ill. I can only sit at the computer for a short time.

Tracy,

I really can relate to your post...... the paranoia. It tries to convince me of things daily....... whew.... it's a hard battle. I feel for you.

Not sure if this can pertain to you..... but since I've been in therapy (over 2 years now, with this, my third therapist)....... I've learned that one aspect of my paranoid thoughts can be a sort of self-sabotage. In that I mean, when I have a good thing...... my mind tries to convince me that it's bad in some way...... as if I don't deserve anything good and it will be taken from me in some way--- so-- the paranoia kicks in and often results in the very thing I was fearful of or something similar that makes the good situation bad.

Could it be that perhaps you don't feel you deserve such a good partner?? Just something to think about........
I do hope you can see how deserving you are of a good partner.
and..... I hope I made sense--- I have trouble expressing things most times and can confuse others or I can be taken the wrong way. I mean all of this in a caring and supporting manner.

Best to you---

[tracylee]

Wow!! You hit the nail on the head I think, thanks so much for putting it into perspective for me. You are a doll, huggles to ya and get well soon