[shortandcute]

I wonder if I didn't just make myself crazy? Maybe I just convinced myelf that I am, so I convinced myself to start acting like it so as to "prove it" to myself!
Maybe my brother in law was right: maybe I don't study my Bible enuff or pray enuff, or sit at their feet enough. Maybe I can't be okay without them hovering (but I'm not okay when they are).
Maybe my daughter is right: maybe I do just want people to think I'm losing it, or want people to say that I'm MI because I subconsciously "like it."
MAYBE I AM BRINGING THIS ON MYSELF AND DOING THIS MYSELF! MAYBE THIS IS HAPPENING BECAUSE I AM NOT RIGHT WITH GOD!?!?!?!?

[here today]

Basically, it sounds to me like you have having feelings/questions that are consistent with the DSM-5 definition of personality disorder which was too confusing for clinicians, so it was ditched for the time being. In the DSM 5 a key feature of having ANY personality disorder was to be:

"Significant impairments in self (identity or self-direction) and interpersonal (empathy or intimacy) functioning."

So, when I read your post, it sounded to me like you had questions about your identity, that you didn't know "who you were" (neither did I and I still have questions, though it's better now) and so wondered if other people might not know, since you weren't sure. And you weren't sure -- not because the others were "right" but because you (might) have a personality disorder!

Hope this helps a little. Hope you're finding some good professional help, too. I found the help hard to find but worth it once I found some.

I don't know about the "God" part and I'm not going to comment, but I often wonder if I'm doing it all to myself because, with the exception of here, everyone thinks that there is nothing at all wrong with me. How can so many people be wrong and I be right? I don't know...

[~EnlightenMe~]

Originally Posted by Maranara

I don't know about the "God" part and I'm not going to comment, but I often wonder if I'm doing it all to myself because, with the exception of here, everyone thinks that there is nothing at all wrong with me. How can so many people be wrong and I be right? I don't know...

Me, too! People think there is nothing wrong with me (well, many). They don't see what is underneath.