[sociallyawkward1037]

I just really need some advice on how to stop the revolving door (hospital visits)
I have BPD (borderline personality disorder) as well as dysthymic disorder and i can not seem to stay out of the hospital. i start feeling suicidal and act on the urges then go to the hospital or i go before i act... but while there i dont really get any 'better'. i just got back from a 1 to 2 month stay at a hospital in december and already thinking about going back! what is wrong with me? I just really need some advice on how to stop it.

i have tried all sorts of medications, i went to DBT for a few months and also saw a phych doc... but still, none of that helped.

(((((((((((hug))))))))))))

so sorry you are in such a turmoil.

i just came in to give you a cuddle and say there are lots of people in here who can help. go into support chat or pm one of the doctors in here.

hope you are feeling better soon

jinnyann x x

[sociallyawkward1037]

thanks for the reply, i was wondering if anyone would be able to help...
i managed to get through today without checking myself in
But i am feeling really impulsive, and i dont know if i will be able to stop myself tomorrow

how do i know who the docs are?

[muffyvanderbear]

Hi, I'm new here and have BPD. I've been in the revolving door myself. Last year I was in the hospital 3 times for a total of 10 weeks. That was when I got the dx of BPD. Prior to that it was Bipolar. The new pdoc and tdoc are questioning the bipolar. I feel like I'm now getting the help I needed. I see my therapist twice a week. He practices Psychodynamic Therapy. It's only been 2 1/2 months since I got out of the hospital, but I'm hoping that this twice weekly therapy will help. Also, last year my inpatient benefits ran out and I spent the last 13 days in a state hospital. That was scarey. I'm hoping that alone will keep me out of the hospital.

(((Hugs)))
Muffy

[jbug]

I have BPD and a few years ago was stuck in the revolving door. Then they closed the hospital up here and the only one that takes medicaid patients always has a really long list to get in. I have started to see my T twice a week for about a year now. I think that really helped to stop the revolving door. I haven't been in the hospital for about 2 years now. A couple of months ago I wanted to go back in but ended up being in daily contact with my T for about a month. I am back to daily contact with him and it really helps a lot. Just knowing that he is getting my messages whether he calls me back or not it helps just being able to vent, scream, yell or cry into his voice mail.

Jbug

ForeverDamned, I know you mentioned you went through DBT, but are you currently seeing a therapist?

I've only been in the hospital once. I hated it so much I left against medical advice after two days. Just being there once was enough to make me not want to go back. I still do things and have symptoms that are probably hospital-worthy, but I keep things just above water so that I can avoid going in. I guess I do have some control. I hate the hospital.

[(JD)]

My T recently said, We don't quit doing what we know is right just because it isn't working yet."

Please continue with psychotherapy and trying meds. TC of yourself... times are tough for you right now, but with work they will ease up.

[faded]

Hey there - I'm sorry that you're going through all of this.
I'll have to tell you that what got me out (and kept me out) of that funk was school, work and goals. I am in the human services and going into the hospital would ruin everything. Everytime I'm afraid of going back in I think - wait until next week, or next month or whatever and once I get there I just do it again. Right now things are really unsteady and I thought that I was going for sure, but I just keep working toward the end - the end of the semester, the beginning of a new summer job etc. What are things in your life that you can work toward? Think about how you're going to get through your next set of suicidal thoughts. Have an exact plan ahead of time.
You also need to think about why you "crave" going into the hospital so much. Perhaps you get some kind of satisfaction out of it? I don't know, nor do you need to tell me. Just think about it & always be brutally honest with yourself.

Good luck