[violet66]

I am not a religious person by any means, but lately I've become a bit spiritual. A boy in my daughter's Kindergarten class has this "aura". It makes me feel amazingly relaxed and centered. I am convinced he is an angel. I don't like it when his eyes meet mine because I feel unworthy of him. I'm nuts, right? What could be going on here? I am taking 0.5 mg of Ativan 1-2 X a Day, could this be it?

[VoNPD]

Perhaps God is using this child to touch your heart in some way and cause you to think more about spiritual matters?

I assure you he is not an angel. But an instrument? Perhaps.

Godspeed!
VoN

[violet66]

Thanks for your reply. This is really freaking me out. Should I avoid him? Because I can tell he knows that I feel uncomfortable

[VoNPD]

Kids can instinctively tell when you are uncomfortable - and there's no reason for you to be. No need to do anything different because of it. Relax! NOBODY is "good enough" or "worthy enough" here on earth. We're ALL the same. Flawed. In need of repair/healing. That's God's job - all you need to do is smile and let Him do it, in His own way in His own time! No need for unworthy feelings since we are all on a level playing field.

Just smile and enjoy his aura!

[Doh2007]

How about making friends with his mother. Maybe your kids can have a play date. Getting to know more should help you relax.

[Perna]

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Psychotic symptoms in bipolar disorder tend to reflect the extreme mood state at the time. For example, delusions of grandiosity, such as believing one is the President or has special powers or wealth, may occur during mania; delusions of guilt or worthlessness, such as believing that one is ruined and penniless or has committed some terrible crime, may appear during depression.

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http://www.nimh.nih.gov/health/publi...lication.shtml

I would talk to your pdoc and/or therapist and see what they suggest. Sounds like you're having a bit of a depressed state and may need more support for it.

I had simlar thoughts about my own son just after he was born, I really was not well but didnt know it so I would see a Dr and mention this to them. It may be a symtom of your illness (it may not ! but no harm in checking it out).

[BalishBun]

Some people just have that thing about them. We cannot explain it. I know this is random and sort of off topic, but when I visited this one cemetery, I was looking at this headstone of this baby, and all of a sudden my ears got really hot, and I felt like it was this child, and he or she was happy to see someone.