[teejai]

Sometimes i feel like i suffer from an emotional form of Prader Willi ie that there's this internal emptiness/hunger that can't be satisfied.

I have described it elsewhere thus <font color="purple"> "A sense of inner hunger and lack of fulfillment. A world full of blahs and that's ok but where's the rest ?'. A desperate search for the holy grail of 'pure satisfaction' or 'emotional orgasm'.</font>

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I tend to go from feeling too little ie emotionally blah/empty/ things are ok but lacking that certain something extra to make them more than ok, to feeling too much in a negative way- anger/irritability/anxiety etc.

Have often said that 'anger lets me know i'm alive'.

[Perna]

Why did you pick PWS, the excessive hunger? I once felt like I was autistic but was working for a school for autistic children and the director I was working for said if I had been autistic, I wouldn't have been able to "explain"/think of myself in those terms. I saw a CSI episode where one of the characters had PWS.

I'm sorry you're feeling so, needy? Is that sort of the correct feeling? Do you ever have moments when it is met or is it more about the "search," the feeling of need itself that is important. What if you were suddenly content/replete? What would you do? Where would you be and how would you continue on?

[teejai]

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Perna said:
Why did you pick PWS, the excessive hunger? I once felt like I was autistic but was working for a school for autistic children and the director I was working for said if I had been autistic, I wouldn't have been able to "explain"/think of myself in those terms. I saw a CSI episode where one of the characters had PWS.

I'm sorry you're feeling so, needy? Is that sort of the correct feeling? Do you ever have moments when it is met or is it more about the "search," the feeling of need itself that is important. What if you were suddenly content/replete? What would you do? Where would you be and how would you continue on?

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It's not so much about neediness as about a muted feeling when it comes to things that are not negative .Things on the non negative side
are ok/blah/dulled to some degree but the negative experiences arouse much greater emotions.

[Perna]

Sometimes growing up negative feelings do get more "attention" from others/parental units. I remember more times I was hit or frightened than I do when I was hugged or felt good/comfortable. My stepmother had a bit of a short fuse and I learned that response from her also. Hard to learn the balanced, take time/figure it out approach if it's not modelled by anyone in our life whom we respect. I was in therapy 20 years with the same good therapist and have a husband who also models it for me and I still struggle sometimes.

I use to read biographies sometimes. Mostly I've read young adult books, like Harry Potter, etc. that had teens growing up, having various problems so I could see how they dealt with them. Immersing myself in those helped me too as I could "feel" what they were feeling even if it took a lot of therapy to learn how to express it all right, to put everything together into a more balanced whole.