[x_BabyG_x]

Just as I thought I couldnt get any worse, I think Im now hearing things.

Im borderline, Im in a relationship, and for a few months now have been trying to get over these 'nightmares' that I have been having. They are the same everynight... something happens, and my boyfriend ends up leaving me. In my dreams, he seems like a different person, and he HATES me.
T said it was just a fear of him leaving, because I really do rely on him so much that I am having these dreams, so I am trying to accept the fact that we have a healthy relationship and he doesnt hate me at all. The past few nights havent been so bad - we even resolved our issues in my dream... but this morning I woke up next to him, and I realised that I didnt have a nightmare. Just as I was thinking this I heard him whisper - 'You make me sick. Sorry, but thats just the way it is...'

I was laid there for a while, asking myself if he actualy said it. Then, I grabbed his shoulder to turn him around and went 'what did you just say to me baby?' and he looked at me strangely and said, 'nothing' and got a bit irritated because Id just woke him up.

I asked him if he was still in love with me and if he still fancied me and he asked me if I had a bad one again.... then to prove that it was all in my head, he made love to me.

Im scared now, that it actually was a voice in my head, I mean, I get the powerfullest feelings of rejection, that he hates me and all the rest, when really he worships the ground I walk on and I know these feelings arent real. Could I really be hearing voices now? Please get back to me I am desperate top hear all of your thoughts about this

babyg - x

[AndyA]

Dreams are largely symbolic. If it were me having that dream, I would think either it stood for my own self-hatred, or it could indicate any beliefs and doubts I had about my girlfriend.

If you only heard voices one time, it's probably from extra and extreme stress you're currently through and nothing you should worry about unless it happens again, but in my opinion that's unlikely. Plus, if you were half-asleep or just waking up, could have just been a "fluke."

It sounds like you already communicate with him, so that's good. Trust is essential, and don't rule out how much a person's own self-hatred can make it seem like others hate you. It's a very real feeling to feel hated by other people when most of the hate is coming from one's own self.

[x_BabyG_x]

Oh for **** sake, i think Im seeing things now. I just went into the kitchen and this creature which was big and black, like a really big slug just glided across the floor and went under the kitchen sink. Like the size of a mouse but it couldnt be a mouse because it was really really too fast. Like a flash. and it didnt run. I dont know what it was I didnt really see it properly. The thing is I dont actually think that it was actually there. Ive done this a few times before over the years.

But then again im sat here terrified to death because I think there is something in my kitchen and I want to go to bed.

I bet you all think Im crazy now. I understand what you mean about the self hatred, because i do that alot, but I am trying to 'accept' myself for who I am.

something which I didnt mention about these dreams is that the feeling I had during the dream feels so real when I wake up, that I have to blame him for actually leaving me/cheating/what ever he does in my dream. I have urges to not answer his calls the next day, and hate him for what he did to me, its like I believe it is real even though it was just a silly dream!! I really dont know whats real and whats not lately - x

[MyBestKids2]

(((x_BabyG_x))))

Sounds like things are getting so much worse. Can you make an emergency appointment with your Pdoc?


Dee

[Kendyll]

When you "heard" him talking, he may have been talking in his sleep - which would have nothing at all to do with you. My BF does that from time to time and I've had to learn that he's NOT talking to me.

If you're really stressing, then that could bring on hallucinations. I've had THAT happen before! Audio, video, both...

I understand about your nightmare - that's the only one I ever have. No Freddy Kreuger stuff. Always always always nightmares about my partner leaving me. Makes sense - that's my worst fear! And they're really vivid dreams. More real than real sometimes. I really have to keep my mind on the fact IT WAS A DREAM!!! 'cause I wake up crying or yelling or angry or scared and my poor BF has no clue what I'm so upset about. Dreams aren't real. Dreams aren't real. Dreams aren't real.