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Jul 03, 2009, 11:07 AM
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I was mindlessly playing computer games yesterday evening, they relax me and take my mind off ME. A pop up for my email flashed up and all I caught was it was from my mother - we haven't had any contact in months - and something about "spread this all over facebook, email and twitter."
 I was so triggered.  First I go into that numb denial zone where I really don't even acknowledge to myself something has happened. Then I started shaking slightly, my heart banging away and felt like I couldn't breath. I was scared to death to read the email - thinking "what is she saying now!?"False alarm, tg, it was one of her forwards about Oil. I just deleted it and did not read it. But what a bad reaction. Lasted for over an hour.
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 I'd rather have a visit, note or pretty picture than an "I'll say a prayer" or a "god bless you." Doesn't make me feel better, no meaning to me for sure. Can't stop you from praying and blessing me, and if that makes you feel better feel free.  But keep it to yourself please, don't tell me. And let's all respect each other's feelings. With kindness, support and "sweet dreamings." 
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Jul 03, 2009, 01:59 PM
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 .....I despise those random email things....especially when you get an unexpected mail from someone your not to interested in communicating with. I'm glad you were able to move through it, but I know it's difficult. Hope you have a good 4th of July and thanks for the pic on my profile page!! I love it!!
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Jul 03, 2009, 11:33 PM
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Hi Pom... I sometimes just get anxious even getting close to my computer... and earlier today actually panicked getting on this network
Doing OK now but it has been a total chaos for the last day and half Hugs!!! Your way...
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Jul 04, 2009, 12:55 AM
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THANK GOD and I really mean that.
I broke ties with my mother in 1992. So did two other of my sisters did. And some of our kids saw her on their own and cut ties. |
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Jul 04, 2009, 03:48 AM
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((((((pome))))))))!!!
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Jul 04, 2009, 08:42 AM
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I hate it when that happens - I think you should give yourself a pat on the back for getting over it in an hour - is that an improvement? would it have taken you longer in the past? if so celebrate that ok.
I have a similar reaction when someone sends me a text and puts luv u at the end - you would think that if I never reply they would get the message... but hey - that life ay! I hope you can do something really nice for you today to make up for your scare - take care P7 
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Its not how many times you fall down that counts  its how many times you get back up!  (Thanks to fenrir for my Picture  )When you have come to the edge of all light that you know and are about to drop off into the darkness of the unknown, Faith is knowing One of two things will happen: There will be something solid to stand on or you will be taught to fly. by Patrick Overton, author and poet |
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Jul 04, 2009, 09:29 AM
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Unfortuantely it's not better for me, I'm getting worse. I'm hoping my PTSD acting up so acutely right now is just due to current family circumstances - a wedding and some other things. I'm hoping when these pass I'll settle back down. Right not it does not take much to trigger me at all!
And my mother! You never know what's going to come out of her mouth, it would also be typical of her to "go nuts" now, right before the wedding and start trouble.
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I'd rather have a visit, note or pretty picture than an "I'll say a prayer" or a "god bless you." Doesn't make me feel better, no meaning to me for sure. Can't stop you from praying and blessing me, and if that makes you feel better feel free. But keep it to yourself please, don't tell me. And let's all respect each other's feelings. With kindness, support and "sweet dreamings."
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Jul 04, 2009, 10:41 AM
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Messages and calls from "home" usually stress me out too. Not usually a panic attack, but I get depressed afterward and dread them. Why? Because something bad is happening over there 99% of the time. Ugh.
Sorry you're feeling stressed. Sending you a virtual hypo-allergenic furry critter of your choice to be there with you until you feel better.
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Jul 04, 2009, 06:17 PM
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sorry pomegranate all I can send to help is these - and I know they are not enough
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Its not how many times you fall down that counts its how many times you get back up! (Thanks to fenrir for my Picture )When you have come to the edge of all light that you know and are about to drop off into the darkness of the unknown, Faith is knowing One of two things will happen: There will be something solid to stand on or you will be taught to fly. by Patrick Overton, author and poet |
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