[forgotten76]

So I suffer with the aftermath of a traumatic incident and with that I have the Great PTSD, which in turn has given many years with little sleep, loads of night terrors, certain extreme fears and at times issues of thoughts of wishing I did not exist, I wonder to myself if I will ever be over all of this stuff, will I ever feel better, will I ever sleep one night through the whole night, will I ever go a week, month, or longer with no thoughts of not existing anymore...I have seen countless therapists and done many treatments, but to no avail, every day is just one more day to suffer, will this be my life destiny to always feel like life has no real value....

Hi Forgotten and welcome.
I hear you and am sorry you are part of the "club". This is a good place to be. People here are very supportive.

I believe it does get better.....but it takes work on your part as well as your T's. I've spent yrs in therapy and for some reason it has FINALLY gotten thru that I am responsible for my own destiny...for my healing and for my working thru so much "stuff".

For years I filled my tool box and learned how to "use" the tools but didn't make a connection on WHEN to use them or HOW to find the right one by trial and error....finally using what I have and adding new tools as I listen to how others have coped, grown, learned.

This is a good place to talk it out. As you do and as you feel safe you will find that you will be supported and cared for.

[Pomegranate]

What white iris said so well. If you keep trying, keep working, you will get better. I'm 55 and still working to heal and get better. Sometime I feel as you do and feel very discouraged, but as I look back I do see progress and how much better I am today than I was 30 or 15 or even 5 years ago. Take it one day, one hour at time if you need to. Be kind to yourself and take care of yourself. You will get better.