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am I allowed to hold a stuffy, in here, without being judged
parental units said no new clothes no toys
anything for me equals unforgiveable selfishness
only they matter
only they are important
i should never have been born
should curl up into nothingness, only way to hope to be safe
f******* them

(((Fuzzy)))) You are safe here. You are safe now...all the time. That was in the past, it isn't now. You are here now...and I'm glad.

I'm glad you are my friend. We've had many good chats over the years here, and you've made me laugh many times, for which I doubly thank you. Laughter is good for the heart. I try to laugh every day and you have helped me with that. If you had never been born you couldn't have brought that into my life here.

Try to stop looking at yourself through evil people's eyes...you know they were wrong on all levels, and that includes their description of you. You are so much more, and, though at times feeling small and helpless, you are an adult who will soon make all her own decisions and be proud of them.

You are my friend.

Hi Fuzzy, I am sorry that these parentals still have such a gripe over you.... What do you think it will take to move beyond THEIR dysfunction????? It is their dysfunction - it doesn't belong to you. (I am glad that you are sharing again).

(((((((((((Fuzzy)))))))))

((((((((((Fuzzybear))))))))))

Sorry things are so bad right now, hope things get better for you soon!

Saying, 'f******* them!' is probably the very best thing you could do!

(((((((((( Furrypaws )))))))))))))

When mine were both dead,
I was finally free.
Their "truth" was no more.
MY truth was THE truth.
I am valueable.
I am worthy.
I am enough.
And so is Fuzzybear!

And so are we all.

((((((fuzzy))))))
it's ok to hold a stuffie
it's ok to want to be held and comforted
it's not ok to allow the parents to make you feel like you should never have been
that's not ok cuz we love the bear!!!!!!!!

Hello (((FUZZY))). The first part of becoming liberated in your abuse is to feel safe to speak out. Our worst enemies are Ourselves and Our thoughts. If you can for one Moment exist as You, then that is one Moment Taken from the abusers. Try to stay safe, if at all possible (((FUZZY))). Take care. Soidhonia

[quote=Fuzzybear;1112499]am I allowed to hold a stuffy, in here, without being judged
Oh my goodness you can have anything you want that makes you feel warm
parental units said no new clothes no toys
The mother of yourself need to treat them as they want to be - which sounds to me --- like their in denial, and REALLY DO WANT new stuff.
anything for me equals unforgiveable selfishness
only they matter
If you only give yourself what THEY say you should get then in actuality THEY are being selfish as THEY WANT YOU do what THEY WANT.
only they are important
Yes they think ONLY THEY SELFISHLY WANT YOU TOO HAVE OR NOT HAVE
i should never have been born
But you are born! You are the mother of the wonderful littles inside you that didn't get what they needed and deserved.
So You must be your own Mother and tend to the little (you's) inside,their needs as you wanted your needs to be met.

You can hold them, caress them, talk softly to them, give them a special stuffy baby,... everything you would give to you if you were the mother. You can be the mother to yourself that you did not have!
should curl up into nothingness, only way to hope to be safe
The littles have curled up for SSSSOOO long.... make it safe for them, each of them in each stage of life where they need to be helped to grow up. Be the Mommy

f******* them
YES F'M !

I, starlite (Susan), care very much about you. Everytime I see your little teddy bear, she makes me smile and I like knowing you are there. Just there... Stabilitly for me - and that is selfish on my part. But I don't know I wouldn't feel happy like I am when I see you.