and i can't take any more.
going outpatient.
not as strong as i thought.
feeling alone, isolated and abandoned.
need to be in a safe place right now where
i can let go, fall apart and not over burden my H
or friends or anyone else.
Not feeling worth that much....
everyone around me is struggling and bending
under their own weight and burdens
they don't need mine too.
so perhaps this will be a time and place i can
let all guards down and let someone else pick up the
pieces.....
but then again i wonder if all the kings men will ever show up......

[susan888]

((((White Iris))))

[Catherine2]

(((wi)))

inpatient?
it may be exactly the very best thing you can do for yourself...and your loved ones in that they know you are willing to get help dealing with everything.

You are in my thoughts
always

Catherine

[silentandscared]

(((((((((((((((((( White Iris ))))))))))))))))))

sometimes we all need a helping hand to get us through and keep us safe so we can address what we need to

thinking of you all

Sas xx

[NuckingFutz]

Sending you hugs...i know it can be hard to ask for help.

Originally Posted by Catherine2

(((wi)))

inpatient?
it may be exactly the very best thing you can do for yourself...and your loved ones in that they know you are willing to get help dealing with everything.

You are in my thoughts
always

Catherine

DUHHHH--shows where my head is.....yes, inpatient.
feel very weak about doing this--like can't handle things like other ppl.
others struggle and get thru without having to go inpatient...and for the most part we have been able to.
Just being hit very hard and was already struggling with triggers and PTSD stuff...and it's too much.....

Catherine--I admire your strength--your inner strength to crawl and work thru and keep going. I'm down--immobile...nothing left....not even enough strenth to crawl into the closet......i guess right now I have given up the fight.....

(((White Iris)))...You are hardly weak. Going inpatient is hard work! We are glad you will be safe & cared for.
All the kings horses and all the kings men
helped put White Iris together again.

[Fuzzybear]

(((((((((((((((( white iris )))))))))))))))))
Thinking of you

[Catherine2]

Originally Posted by white_iris

DUHHHH--shows where my head is.....yes, inpatient.
feel very weak about doing this--like can't handle things like other ppl.
others struggle and get thru without having to go inpatient...and for the most part we have been able to.
Just being hit very hard and was already struggling with triggers and PTSD stuff...and it's too much.....

Catherine--I admire your strength--your inner strength to crawl and work thru and keep going. I'm down--immobile...nothing left....not even enough strenth to crawl into the closet......i guess right now I have given up the fight.....

wi,
Hear my heart saying this to you...you are not weak
and
remember we don't compare, whether it is our traumas or how we get back on the path of healing....different pace and different way is as it should be...this way it's not a cookie-cutter, one size fits all thing. So there is no shame or guilt allowed...
Re others struggling and not going inpatient? Good for them...but remember you are judging your insides by their outsides...not going inpatient may have extracted a very high price on them.

In no way do I have strength each and every day...it comes and goes, it may stay for some time or it may be fleeting.
I'm sure you have seen my posts in Combat PTSD, and know I'm having a rough time, too.

Crawling? You don't have to worry about it, my friend, I know how to drag someone along with me as I crawl...just watch out for the bumps we'll encounter and we'll be a great team.

Giving up? Posted this in the other thread;

"some people believe that holding on and hanging in there are signs of strength, but there are times in life when it takes much more strength to just let go"
~~unknown~~

Perhaps you've reached the point of letting go...you've fought a long, hard battle. The need for extra support is not a sign of weakness; it's being damn smart about doing the right thing.

Oh by the way? I already have your bat...
and I'm on your six, my friend.

Know that you are cared about by many of us, and we will crawl right along with you.
You are not alone.

Catherine

[Sannah]

[Fuzzybear]