[LynD]

Saw my T today. She says I definately have many of the ptsd symptoms. We discussed my dad, and I told her how I have flashbacks and in them I am not 'me', I am watching me in the situation and its like I am watching the whole thing play on a screen. I told her that I know i was scared/angry etc but when I think about it, I have no feelings that come up. She told me its called disassociation. She believes that is why I am having so many problems now because my husband leaving is triggering and I am feeling it. I don't like it, because now I don't know if what I am experiencing is from then or from now, and how to sort through all that.

[skeksi]

You are not alone. It is difficult to wrap your head around the idea, I am sure, but it can be comforting to know that there is a "real" reason for all the confusing things you have been feeling. I know that for me just knowing that there were words to describe what I was experiencing, that other people had these things, too, was a great relief.

You are not alone.

May you both find your way to peace. Good luck.

[Yoda]

I have dissociated at times too. It is like a safety mechanism when the pain is too severe to feel your mind shuts down so you avoid it for the moment.

Therapy and time have helped me.

[amante]

Lyn,
I'm sure it's hard with your husband leaving that has triggered things. the good thing is that your T recognizes the symptoms that it's PTSD and can give you the appropriate therapy to help with the feelings you have. Be good to yourself, sounds like you have alot going on.

[LynD]

Thank you all for your support. As I think about this more, I wonder if all these yrs that I struggle with depression, anxiety, etc is all because of the ptsd, and not just multiple diag's. It seems also that I am actually feeling more different feelings since we started down this path, instead of just a sense of not being ok, if that makes any sense. Like today I am feeling irritable and not sure why or at who.

[amante]

Lyn,
Often when one is suffering with many things like PTSD and Depression etc.. the conditions can seem to blend into one and you end up feeling confused with what is causing you to feel a certain way, like are you overwelmed, irriated because of the depression or the PTSD or both. I have multiple diagnosis too, PTSD, Depression, Anxiety, Insomnia, it lends itself to a big list of symptoms. I tend to know very clearly when it's the PTSD symptoms I'm feeling. What's good is that you are telling yourself that you are not OK. keep leaning on all the support you can get.