Sexually Abused,Needing Support Help! (very explicit..trigger) Kind of long..sorry :(

Welcome to PC. Like many others have already said, I was appalled at what that person did to you, and I admire you for the strength to keep going. Otheres have certainly siad it better. I just wanted to add my voice to those offering support and welcoming you to the site! HUGGS

How are you doing, liljobie?

((((liljobie))))

Thank you for sharing. I am so sorry you had to go through all this. I understand and feel for you. Right now that is all I can say as this has really touched me. Please keep posting as you can and sharing as you feel safe and that you can share. Know we are here and listening and hearing you. Thank you for reaching out. We care.

dps

Hi,

I was also abused by my father. I have a few suggestions about therapy. If you can afford it, do not go to a clinic. Although it is cheap, you will experience changing therapists often. The T connection I believe is the most important aspect of therapy. It will allow you to heal. Also, when looking for a T, interview several. It is important that you and your new T are on the same page. This is hard work and it isn't easy. Good luck and please ask us anything.

I'm sorry for not posting sooner....just been going through alot mentally for the last few weeks.

Another failure on my part.....I quit physical therapy. It involves my physical therapist (a man) touching me and I think it may have triggered me, making me feel like I can't do it anymore. I just can't seem to follow through on anything. I even have checked on finding a counselor or therapist to help me deal with things and it seems like I have so many issues. I am just trying to take each day in stride. Although it's a process, I am trying. I just don't know how to cope anymore. I just seem so sensitive lately. Just looking for a therapist brought me to tears today. Am I really ready to heal?

I thought about writing down my thoughts in a journal. As I'm writing this I am in tears. I feel so lost.... . Can anyone suggest something for me to read? I just feel like I need something to grasp onto so I don't drown. My emotions just seem to be so raw and tender. I can't understand it. I feel so abnormal, I'm 42, but I still feel like I'm a child....lost and wandering through life. I want to thank everyone again for being so supportive. It is comforting to know that I can say anything here and not feel like I have to hold anything back. You all here are my lifeline right now. I know that I'm not alone here.....and most of all I feel safe here. I feel right now that I have put on a face for so many years.....you know that happy face....that nothings wrong, when inside I feel so sad, angry, confused, crazy, abnormal....I could go on and on.

I just wanted to let everyone know that I haven't been ignoring anyone, each day for me is a process now.....do I think about it today, or do I just throw myself into the day with household duties....life is becoming harder and harder each day. I just don't know anymore.....I'm tired of denying feelings and pushing them away.....i feel so numb. Please keep me in your thoughts.....as I will of all of you. Thank you again....
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Do you have a general practitioner? If so, call and ask for a referral to a psychiatrist for evaluation and appropriate treatment, including therapy. While you are at it, ask the GP to refer you to a female therapist for physical therapy.

This article made a lot of sense to me: http://www.psychologytoday.com/print/1752

(((((((((((((liljobi))))

I have the same feelings...it is a lost feeling, combined with feelings of being out of place in this world...but you my friend have a purpose..

http://www.amazon.com/Purpose-Driven...7753698&sr=8-1

I recommend the book above, it is about how we cannot always look inside ourselves for answers...but rather look to the one that CREATED us

His purposes for us are far greater than we could imagine...and he thought of you before you were even born..

Pm me anytime liljobie, meanwhile take care of YOU.....not always the housework......take time to journal and take time to write here because we all care about ya

Copy this thread so you do not accede to the temptation to minimize what you have been through. Get professional help and let the healing begin.

Hugs Glad you are here

((((liljobi))))

Just wanted you to know that I am thinking about you and hoping you are doing okay. Sending you gentle hugs and loving thoughts. Always.

dps

How are you doing, liljobi?

I've been doing okay. I have an appointment next week for an intake appointment for therapy. It's the beginning of my healing.....I'm not gonna lie...I'm scared. I have also found an extremely helpful book called "The Courage To Heal". I am so glad to have found it. I have been confused and not sure of how to start on my path of healing. I just want to feel whole again, and I know feel like I have a starting point.

I want to thank you again for being my friend. It's good to know that there are people here like me, that understand and offer support.

That's what PC is for- friendship and support

How exciting- the journey to healing!!

I am on one of those journeys myself..........

You have chosen a good starting point. Good luck, liljobi!

Good for you, liljobi. Best wishes for a wonderful adventure to healthfulness.

nice to meet you jodi,
may you find all the people here at pc as nice and supportive as I have.
I'm sorry for your need but glad to have another person here to talk to.
Tracy