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I keep realising more and more triggers and symptoms of my PTSD, it seems never ending. Another trigger I've noticed is tv shows about people finding their families. There's this show on in Australia about people finding relatives they've never met or haven't seen in years. I can't watch the ads or the show, I have to change the channel.
I didn't meet my father until I was 18, I was lied to the whole time, he didn't even know I existed. One person in my family even told me this story that my father was married with kids and had an affair with my mother, I confronted the people she said told her that and they have absolutely no idea what the hell she is talking about.

When I see thid show it just makes me so mad and depressed, I know in reality it's nothing like on tv. It wasn't actually a great experience at all and my father turned out to be another drug taking alcoholic. In fact when I called his house his partner thought I was calling up to buy drugs.

Well anyway, this show is coming back on tv again, so now I have to deal with seeing the ads and coming across the show again. It's not my biggest trigger, but it still bugs me. Especially when people are talking about stuff on tv, I've had one or 2 people ask if I watch the show because it's really great, and I've been at someones house and it comes on and they want to watch it. I don't really want to know what to do or what to say...

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I struggle with tv shows being a trigger as well, there is one show here in the States, my parents love to watch, and watch it constantly, it really triggers my parinoa and PTSD, even just hearing the show from my bedroom sets me off, since I can't explain to them why it upsets me.

I've found that when they decide to watch that show I leave the room, go read, turn on some music so I can't hear it, if I am in a position where I can't leave the room, I ask them if maybe we could watch something else, the show upsets me.

I was wondering if you had sattillte or cable, most have the ablitity to lock or block certain channels or shows, maybe you could set up a block on the show so when it comes on you wouldn't have access to it?

Best wishes
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No I only have regular tv, I can't afford anything like that because I live by myself. It's only on once a week so I can manage, it just makes me feel so pathetic that I'm getting upset over a tv show.

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Be gentle with yourself hun, it's not pathetic you get upset over a t.v. show, a trigger is a trigger for a vaild reason, please be kind to yourself, here if you ever need to talk feel free to pm anytime

Many peaceful thoughts
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Get a load of this one: I trigger over commercials!!! Cry like a baby, go around getting all resentful and huffing away that everyone else has it so great, what about me? When do I get a Hallmark commercial in my life???

I'll get all depressed into the next week if I don't stop myself. Gee, talk about PTSD!!! Better to just sit at the computer and talk with you Evening-it's so much more pleasant---(((((HUGS)))))-Theo

[AShadow721]

I've watched this show or one like it. It's not always that great, some of the people don't even want to see the person that's looking for them and you know, they cut out a lot the bad parts on tv. The show makes me sad, because my husband for one has two sisters that were taken away by child services because their mother abandoned them when they were 3 and 8, he was 18. He has a whole family in Cuba who he has never met, including grandparents and a half-sister and half-brother. His mother abandon him several times. Now, she has gotten married and moved to San Antonio. We don't know her new name or number or address or anything and she has not tried to contact my husband or my brother-in-law. I at least have my father-in-law's number and we have talked to him on the phone. But he abandoned his wife and kids in Cuba and his family with my mother-in-law before my mother-in-law abandoned them. So anyway, I'm sure they don't do whole family reunions on this show. My husband really wants to find his sisters more than anything. He feels guilty that they were taken away, because he was the oldest and obviously he misses them.

I'm sorry your father turned out to be no good. Maybe it was best that you didn't know him?

[grizmom]

I get triggered by those commercials about abused/abandoned pets and any movie or tv show that shows a pet getting hurt/killed...when I was 18 I was constantly arguing with my mom, so I left a note one night saying that I was going to stay with a friend for awhile so we could have a break from each other; I came back just under a week later and she had packed all of my things, re-painted my room and gave it to my brother, and my dog - that I'd rescued from an animal shelter - was gone. I asked if she had run away. My mom said "No, I shot her. You weren't here to take care of her."

(My mom has done a 180 since those years, and finally did apologize for that after 16 years, but I still haven't been able to move past it)

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that part about giving your room to your brother I can kind of relate to, when I moved out of home at 17 my 15 year old cousin who was doing all these drugs and running from the cops decided to stay with my mother, she gave him my old room and said if I ever wanted to come back home I had to sleep on the couch because my cousin had my room now. Like you we've moved on and she has apologised from it but a lot of resentment is still there, I had a choice out of sleeping on the couch at my alcoholic mothers and cousin who was dealing her drugs, or living in a half empty house on $79 a fortnight and sleeping on wooden boards. I chose the boards.

I just love all the Happy Mother's Day ones, especially now my mom is gone........................and my kids-forget them, they always forget me.wah wah wah--------------------but I miss my mom

I ne'er thought how much I loved and would miss her till she was really gone.
Crazy Wise woman.